I don't feel like I used to before,
Old friend
Things are much different now
I feel like my roots are dying of thirst
Old friend
Like someone is pulling them from their place and leaving them to rot
Old friend
I need you more than ever now
For I rely on your roots to save mine
Old friend
My soul feels like it is weighed down
Tiny boulders, a thousand pounds,
Old friend
And I have no hammer
For these rocks to be broken,
Old friend
So I need you to unchain me from them
To subtly take the weight from me
Old friend
For my roots
My soul
My friend
My blood and bones
Are dissolving into the air
And I was once strong
But now see my state
Old friend
And lend only a finger from your hand
And I shall be in debt all days till death
Old friend,
I beg of you, my sunshine, my soil
My breeze in sweltered sun, my dear
Old friend
I am but a weed in your garden
A devil in your heaven
Old friend
And now I see how you no longer wish
For all the time we spent together
Old friend
You ignore me and long ago forgot me
But I think of you everyday and I say
Old friend
You are the only one who made it right
And the only one who can do it again
Old friend
I find no comfort in begging you
Ashamed in what I have to do
Old friend
But I sit upon my knees and cry
Only for a word from you
For a drop of water for my roots
A sprinkle of soil
A ray of sun
For a smile to touch my soul
A gentle breeze
A hammer
I ask no longer for you to care for me
As I still care so much for you
But only for the tools I need
A simple goodbye
A few good words
One last smile
So that I may remember you
And care for myself in the way you did
So you may never hear me utter
The words that still bind us
The only fragment of what you tolerate
So you may be free from
The only name I can utter
Without shattering
under this souls weight
Please just give me one last time
To look you in the eyes and call you
Old Friend.
