His Tesoro (MxM)

Chapter 45

Matteo

After Spade and Stefano left, I was left home alone with basically nothing to do, I hate staying idle, it made me think even more, about what happened yesterday and how I almost got killed, and the sudden compatibility between Spade and Stefano.

I don't know what his deal is but I keep getting very uncomfortable with him around me everyday, I know Spade said he had literally saved my life by pulling out the bullet before it caused even more damage, but it's not as if the doctor wouldn't have done it too, I'm not ungrateful but I just don't feel completely okay with Stefano around me.

He still hasn't said shit about what happened at the auction, and him pretending is pissing me off, it's as if he doesn't want me to remember, or he doesn't think I remember what happened that night.

I turned and groaned when I mistakenly touched my injured limb, it hurts like a fucking bitch, it's not the first time I've been shot and it's definitely not going to be the last time, but I would do it again if it saved Spade's life, I know we weren't exactly on talking terms when we went into the abandoned factory, I still couldn't let anything happen to him, especially not after Nate had asked me to look after him.

I still don't really know what went down between Greg and my mother, but after Spade spoke to me this morning, I decided that I wouldn't and couldn't be mad at him for it anymore, it's not his fault.

But I still need an explanation as to how he knew and I didn't, if my mom actually told him or he had caught them.
I cringed when a thought crossed my mind, a thought of my mom cheating on my... I paused stopping myself from calling him my dad, knowing he's not my dad actually makes it easy for me to hate him for everything he did to me as a kid.

I was barely a teenager but he made me feel like a fucking adult because of the things Micheal had me go through, thank God for the perfect body puberty had given me, most if not all of the bruises he inflicted on me had completely faded, all except for one.

The one time I thought I would die for sure, that was exactly a month after he had Spade put in jail, when I thought I still had a chance to rebel and he'd let me be but he proved me wrong when he broke a bottle on my head, clearly he was drunk and pissed off, and I picked the wrong time to argue and rebel.

He picked up pieces of the bottle and used them to tear and pierce my skin, but one really stuck, when he stabbed me, a nine year old boy on my abdomen, and then left me to bleed out on the kitchen floor.

I'd never forget that day, I laid there for hours asking myself so many questions, wanting to know where I went wrong, and why my father hated me so much that he wanted me dead, but now that I know he was never my father, I can't say I understand where his anger came from, but I kind of don't feel like complete shit.

I never told Spade about it, in fact there are a lot of things that happened while he was in prison that I never told him about, and I intend not to, it's in the past so there's no point in reliving those horrible memories.

Nate had also gone to work, I had eaten the leftover breakfast in the kitchen, now contemplating what I'd eat for lunch, the drugs the doctor gave me was kind of making me super hungry, and I couldn't stop it because according to Spade, they'd help me regain what I lost in blood yesterday.

I looked at the time and it was already four hours since Spade and Stefano left the house, I shouldn't be worried but I can't help it, for two reasons, one I don't trust Stefano, never have and never will, two, Spade going to see Sullivan is not really a good idea, especially if he was the one that had been sending men to shoot at Spade.

I still don't know why Spade had asked Stefano to go with him, I hadn't told him yet what Stefano did, but I have a feeling if I do, Spade's going to kill him and I don't know if I want that or not.
Definitely I don't want Stefano to go Scott free for touching me without my consent but I don't want to add more shit and trouble for Spade, he already has a lot on his plate now.