His Tesoro (MxM)

Chapter 106

Stefano

"What's happening to him"? I heard Spade's voice, trying to overpower the voice of my father in my head, I watched as Hewitt stood in front of me, trying to calm me down, my chest tightened and so did my heart, it squeezed with pain, I was gasping for air, everything was muffled, even my own voice sounded far away.

"He's having a panic attack and I need to snap him out of it, if he doesn't snap out of it, he's going to go into shock" Hewitt answered to Spade, I couldn't even look at them, I just tried to focus on their muffled voices "Stefano look at me, we're going to get Matteo back but you have to breathe, breathe with me buddy" Hewitt cooed as I shook my head and tried to steady my breathing, but it wasn't working, nothing was working.

Only one person could get me out of this, and he's not here, and it's all my fault, I caused this.
I never should have let him date me, bad luck follows me anywhere I go, and I brought it on Matteo too.

"Has it ever happened like this"? I heard Spade asked, he was also looking at me with so much concern, I don't deserve their worry, they should be mad at me, Spade should hate me for putting his brother in danger, not worrying for me.

"He's had panic attacks before but not this serious" Hewitt explained to him before he placed his hand on my shoulder, probably to snap me out of it
"Look at me buddy, Matteo needs you right now more than anything, you can't shut down now okay"? He cooed, I tried to nod and breathe at the same time "we're going to get him back, I promise you with my life, just please breathe for me Stef, don't shut down on me" he whispered, I could hear the break in his voice and see the heartbreak in his eyes, I couldn't keep doing this to him.

Making him worry for me, I need to get my shit together, I need to fight for Matteo, they all need me and I need them even more.
I started following Hewitt's rhythm and breathing with him "that's good buddy, just like that, you're doing great" he pressed, and that made me even more willing to snap out of whatever I was in.

I could feel my breathing coming back to normal and my heart beat steadying itself, even their words no longer sounded muffled and my ears were no longer ringing, their faces didn't blur into each other and I could feel my shaking hands slowing down as Hewitt wrapped his hand around mine, I looked down at our hands and let out a deep breath, swallowing hard.

I looked back up at him "you okay buddy"? he asked and I nodded

"Thank you" I whispered and he gave me a weak and sad smile, nodding his head, I hated that I had to pour all my shit on him like this, Hewitt has always taken care of me without question, and I keep adding more baggage for him, it's not fair, not at all

My eyes moved to Spade and he was looking at me intently, I let out a heavy deep breath, Hewitt led me back to my chair that I had knocked over before, he helped me sit and he took the seat close to me, while Spade sat in front of both of us, still watching me.

His stare wasn't judgemental tho or pitiful, it was just .... I didn't know how to explain it, but it didn't make me self conscious of the fact that I had just broken down in front of him.
I know they were going to ask about the call I received, and as much as I didn't want to have it in my mind, I will have to tell them, Spade especially, his brother's life is in danger because of me, so before they could ask any question, I spoke first.
"That was my father" I whispered, I felt Hewitt's hand around mine tightened even more, I know he already knew it was my father, but hearing it was definitely pissing him off the more.

I watched Spade start nodding his head slowly "what did he want"? Hewitt gritted out, I looked at him and then Spade before I licked my lips and sighed out heavily "you don't have to tell us if you don't want to" Hewitt said softly and I just shook my head, I have to tell them what he said, even if it pains me to do so.