A Book of Poems

~ 𝕃𝕚𝕖𝕤 𝕒𝕟𝕕 𝔾𝕠𝕠𝕕𝕓𝕪𝕖𝕤 ~

How easy is it for you,
To walk in and out of my life,
Like we're attached together with glue,
When I want to hold to your throat a knife.

My opinions are invalid,
Yet you want to talk,
You say I'm just a dumb kid,
So let me go and walk.

It hurt.

It hurt when you chose her,
It hurt that you're never around,
My thoughts are a blur,
I'm selfish but want to be found.

Once I wanted you back,
Now I can't see you trying,
Trying to pull me out of the black,
I now finally know you were lying.

That hurt.

One I wanted to be a 'daddy's girl',
Now I don't know what that means,
I look at you and my stomach hurls,
But what do we know? Stupid teens.

But I know more than you think,
You can't manipulate how I feel,
And watching you, my heart it sinks,
This is no longer real.

You and I are no longer what we once were,
We will never ever be the same,
You weren't there for me when my thoughts whirred,
When I cried and silently screamed in flames.

My stomach burns with jealousy,
Of watching others, and while watching you,
But I guess that's my twisted destiny,
It should hurt less since it isn't new.

It doesn't.

I feel numb and cold and empty,
You use me and I can tell,
So missing you is a crime so petty,
Because you weren't there for my silent yells.

Pain.

Sadness.

Depression.

Three words you'll never accept,
Yet you have no part in my life anymore,
No one was there when I wept,
So how's this time different from years before?

I feel nothing now,
When I hear your name,
It's an empty hollow sound,
And no one but you is to blame.

So get out,
Out of my life for good,
I've had enough of this shout,
And the lies you've had cued.

Now here we come to the hardest part,
The time when I can't cry,
I'll let you leave with a thought like a dart,
Leave your lies, I'm saying goodbye.