A Book of Poems

~ 𝔻𝕖𝕔𝕚𝕡𝕙𝕖𝕣 ~

Trapped in your chest,
Stuck with your heart,
Thoughts never at rest,
Always a part.

The way you describe it,
It sounds so easy,
That I lit,
The fire that won't leave me.

My word are all jumbled,
My thought all on loose,
My words all mumbled,
My emotions no excuse.

Spotlight,
Over and over,
What a sight.
Wish on a clover.

One day I hope I'd forget,
Wake up in a different bed,
That it wasn't something I let,
Conquer over my head.

Sometimes I feel so drained,
Like I'm stuck in this loop,
The words are stained,
Creating a bigger group.

Now I can't bring my head up,
I'm stuck underwater and drowning,
But that water is my thoughts that are stuck,
And now I'm left stuck here frowning.

But still I manage,
To smile throughout the day,
Even though I'm left with the damage,
I don't let your smile fade.

It hurts.

It pains.

I can't push it away,
But now I'm begging for you to stay,
Not leave me like the others that day,
So I'm not left here alone to pay,
For the mistakes I made,
Even though it was because of my way.

Because now I sit alone,
My mind an empty land,
My hands stuck to my phone,
As I try to decipher the sand.

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A/N: This poem is more.. personal.

If you guys didn't get this one, no secrets today; it's about anxiety.

Lately I've been struggling with anxiety, mostly social anxiety and LauraRiddle1999 has been the biggest help <3

I am so thankful to have such good friends so thank you, because I feel some people just don't listen or understand me.

I don't know how many of you actually read these and it's funny.

Anyways.

It is 4:15 am right now for me and I haven't slept and probably won't,

Love ya'll tho!!

Love,
Ava! <3