Under the same Umbrella ||Sookai Story|| [eng]

☔︎Nine☔︎

Kai's pov

Taehyun and I are in my room... I finally understood how I feel about Soobin... I love him, I'm convinced of it, I've never felt anything like this and all this makes me nervous and excited at the same time, it takes my breath away just thinking about it.
I look at Soobin's contact, months have passed and I have never written to him, I can't find the courage to write to him, I don't know what to write to him and every time I click his profile I feel my heart beating wildly.
"Kai? Are you listening to me?" Taehyun asks me.
"Oh sorry... I'm a little distracted today... I can't stop thinking about it" I tell Taehyun, as if I've already told him what I'm thinking about.
"Thinking about what?" He asks me curiously.
"Soobin" I answer him.
"Did you write to him?!" He looks at me in shock, as he tells me to write to him every day, but to no avail since I can't think of a smart thing to write to him.
"No" I answer him.
"But why don't you write to him!? He knows you! You've known each other for years now! What's stopping you?" He asks me.
"I don't know what to say! What if I make a bad impression on him? What if he gets angry with me because I didn't write to him sooner? He has every reason to do so! What if he hates me for this? My hands are shaking and it takes my breath away just thinking about writing to him... I love him, Taehyun... But how can I tell him?" I ask him all in one breath, now completely crazy from the thousand questions and emotions buzzing inside me.
"But Kai there's no way you're going to make a bad impression on him! Be yoursel- Wait... What?! You love him!? You finally realized!? About time, holy shit!" He tells me suddenly as if he had recorded everything just now.
"Y-yes... But how can I tell him?! I can't! I can't even write him a simple hello!" I complain to him almost having tears in my eyes about how I feel, I promised to be there for him and then I never said a single word to him! I feel like shit!
"As I was saying before, be yourself Kai! It's true that he would have every reason to be angry with you, I don't want to tell you a lie about this, but I don't think he is capable of hating you Kai, no one could hate you, you are a wonderful person, with a pure soul and heart, I already feel lucky to have a friend like you! I can't imagine how he will feel knowing that you love him! Be guided by your instinct... Ask him out, maybe being there with him helps you get confident!" He suggests me.
"You're crazy! I just told you I can't even text him hello!" I yell at him.
"Do you want me to write to him?" He asks me.
"No!" I tell him irritated by his question.
"Then write to him! Put everything aside and write to him, because if you don't you will lose him forever and I don't think you want that" He tells me, unlocking a new fear... The fear of losing him... I can't lose him! Not now that I've finally understood how I feel about him! Not knowing that I love him so much! I don't want to ruin my first love!
"I'm going to the bathroom, I'll be right back" I say to him getting up from the bed... Somebody help me... I don't know what to do! I don't want to lose him, but at the same time I can't write to him...I'm screwed.

Taehyun's pov

While Kai is in the bathroom I send myself Soobin's contact details so I can write to him and lend a hand to these two idiots... Or rather that idiot of Kai... I've been telling him to write to Soobin for six freaking months, but nothing! I know Kai and I know how shy he is... But I certainly didn't expect him to be so shy with someone he gets along so well like Soobin! They slept together, they kissed who knows how many times, they were even about to have sex! And now he can't even write to him!? Sometimes I really don't understand him... That's how he is! What can I do!
I delete the message from Kai's phone and I text Soobin.
<<Hi Soobin, I'm Taehyun, Kai's friend, I wanted to ask you if you were free next Saturday, Kai has to talk to you, this dumbie is afraid to write to you for some strange reason, please excuse him>> I turn off my phone hoping for a response from him.
Kai comes back into the room and I make myself comfortable, ready to schedule these two on a date.
"Kai, are you free next Saturday?" I ask him nonchalantly.
"Yes why?" He asks me back.
"I was thinking we could go to the usual café! If you like" I tell him trying not to get caught.
"Okay... How about half past four?"
"Perfect!" Shortly afterwards I tell Soobin the location and time.
We spend the rest of the day chatting, until I have to go home.

Soobin's pov

I send this damn email and then I close the computer to take a break, my eyes burn for the long hours I'm looking at the screen and the glasses, even if they help, only go up to a certain point, I take them off and close my eyes, massaging them a little.
I look at my phone to see what time it is and if Kai has texted me, but nothing.
"So he wrote to you?" My sister asks me.
"No... I miss him noona... I miss him like crazy... How can I meet him again? I want to see him!" I say feeling tears in my eyes.
"Come on Soobinie! By the way that Kai is a bit of an asshole though! He complains that he misses you and that he doesn't know if he loves you and then he doesn't even text you! Bah!" She comments.
"Maybe he forgot the card or he lost it somewhere along the way... He's quite careless" I try to defend him to my sister.
"A bit like you!" She laughs making me laugh too.
"Yeah! I'm going to get some coffee!" I say getting up from the chair and stretching my legs.

As I enjoy my coffee looking out the huge window, I feel my phone vibrating insistently in my pocket.
"Taehyun? What? How does he have my number?" I ask to myself, reading the messages.
<<Kai has to talk to you>> He writes making me have a heart attack <<This idiot is afraid to write to you for some strange reason, please excuse him>> At first it pisses me off to know that he didn't write to me for such a stupid reason, but then the love I feel for Kai makes me forget everything and makes me smile.
<<Hi Taehyun, how are you? I'm glad to know that Kai didn't forget my number somewhere! It would've made everything harder, anyway yes... I'm free next Saturday>> I answer him feeling my cheeks on fire... I finally get to see him!
<<Good! I told Kai that me and him will meet at Eighty's Music Caffè at half past four, I won't be there, enjoy your day!>> He answers me.
<<Okay, thank you so much Taehyun>> I answer in return running to my sister's office.

"Noona! Noona! Noona!" I say opening the door without even knocking, for how happy I am "Kai's friend wrote to me... We'll see each other next Saturday!" I say jumping for joy.
"Oh my God! That's beautiful Soobinie! So he didn't forget the card?" She asks me.
"No, he can't write to me... He's too shy to do that" I start laughing at how cute he is "He's a puppy! I love him!" I say placing my hands on my cheeks, completely red.
"Soobin calm down the hormones! You don't want mom and dad to find out! I'm happy for you though Soobinie!" My sister says giving me a hug.
"Plus Taehyun said that Kai has to talk to me... What do you think he has to tell me? Do you think he understood?" I ask her.
"Number one, who is Taehyun? Number two, I think so! If he has to talk to you and his friend has set up a date for the two of you, I think that he understood he loves you" She answers me and I start crying on her shoulder, while she strokes my hair.
"I'm so happy! He loves me noona! He loves me! I love him! We love each other! Do yo think I should ask him to be my boyfriend?" I ask her again.
"Yeah, I think so, who the hell is Taehyun anyway?" She asks me.
"He's Kai's friend, I'm going back to my office, see you later!" I say walking out of my sister's office "I'm seeing Kai next Saturday!" I yell, closing the door behind me, grinning toothily.
"Bye!" I hear her say before closing the door.
I missed you so much pup!