My Posh idiot (BOOK 2)

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Iman Harriott ~

I had a little think about on what Alistair had told me earlier, while we were airing and I decided that I should invite Amaya on the show.

The minute Alistair fixed his mouth to tell me that my outburst reminded me of how he acted back in university, I had to dial myself back to reality. Like that was such an insult, I'm nothing like how he was.

But in all seriousness, I was denying another girls freedom of speech and right to speak her truth, based on my beliefs.

I've trained myself for years that there was no point of me trying to get my justice against someone like Harry. I've seen cases like this, especially as a woman of colour. No one believes you. My way of justice is forgetting about it and it seems to work as I haven't let my trauma affect my relationships or day to day life.

My way of healing probably doesn't benefit Amaya, so why push how I feel onto her, to prevent her from going on. If this is how she wants to get her story out, then so be it. I want it on my show and I'll support her regardless. I don't know if she'll get lucky with her justice, but I hope I can do as much as I can to get her the full healing she needs.

13 years earlier ~

Couple days had went by and my days were getting lonelier by the minute. I would've been naive and thought that me being lonely was the right thing, but I did some thinking and I deeped all this loneliness just pushed my friends away from me.

It's been nearly a month since Harry had raped me and I've been having these mood swings lately. Like I'm lost for what emotions to betray type of thing.

In honesty I didn't know who to believe. I started spending more time with my brain and over thinking on how everyone was at fault with why I got raped.

I haven't spoken to Mariah for nearly two weeks, I shut her out. I deeped how she was never around and quick to leave me to find Hugo, when we were at motives.

Always that damn Hugo, dragging her every which way.

Like what best friend leaves her best friend for man, not knowing the danger that could arrive.

I stopped talking to Dimitri to. If he had never made that fucked up debate, I wouldn't be such a challenge for Harry. Dimitri made me such a big target for him and even though he apologised, it was too late anyways. I fell for Alistair and it stroked Harry's ego even more.

Harry couldn't fathom the fact that Dimitri got a chance to know me and I know it hurt him even more that Alistair got to fuck me.

Oh I really do miss him...

I shouldn't miss him but it's so hard. Alistair makes it so hard for me to move on when he tries to apologise any given time that he sees me. I have to avoid him like the plague, before I give in.

I have been so tempted to take him back, but then in the back of my mind, the thoughts come to the rescue and remind me as to why I broke up with him in the first place.

I should've never been with Alistair, even if I didn't get raped, he was going to eventually to something very unforgivable.

But I don't regret being with him. Sometimes with life, it's really a "those that don't hear, must feel" type situation.

I trusted an idiotic posh white boy with my feelings and this is what I got.

Alistair is not at fault, I just wished he would've put others first for just one second.

After playing the blaming game and realising I had no friends, the only person who was right to blame was Harry. I think I pin pointed other people because I got into my head and I couldn't bravely open my mouth and say it was all Harry's fault.

I was scared and still am. The Iman a whole month ago would've cussed him out and exposed him confidently. All that kick I sent to his groin was probably all the confidence I used up.

I kept on getting nightmares that every time I tried to report Harry, something bad was always coming for me. I couldn't quite tell what the bad things were as I would wake up in paranoia before it even happened.

I knew I would report Harry's ass, but I didn't know when that would be. I didn't know if I'd ever been confident to go against him and even if I did, it'll probably be too late.

Harry comes from generations of money and they are prepping him to become a future mp, possibly even a PM.

What could my little old black ass do. I don't want to be the girl that made up a story or lied for money.

The more I think about it, it scares me even more like it's either I put matters into my own hand and report him, or I start healing by forgetting about Harry raping me.

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I remember looking back at the comments from Posh Idiots about how some readers thought that certain friends were neglectful when it came to Iman.

As I wasn't able to dive into that particular field, I wanted to show how Iman felt during her aftermath of what Harry did to her. So I hope this clears and answers any readers comments about Iman's friends.

I will be releasing another chapter for Monday and Thursday. I will be putting trigger warnings for those future chapters as well as the story begins to get very deep.

I will not be releasing a chapter next Sunday as I will be working long hours this week.

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PS. Thank you for 4k reads I really appreciate it😊