My Thoughts Taint Your Look [ a regretevator partybeetle au ] [SMUTFIC]

Spiral

( TW for graphic detail of vomiting, self harm, and suicide attempt, as well as implied sexual contact. Please do not read if you're in a bad place at the moment. Excuse the errors in this fic as I just used this to vent. )

Saturday. The day Poob both looked and dreaded for. This day was the day they were going to what was possibly the biggest party they would ever go to. And possibly the last for a good while. This party was going to tire them out, but wouldn't be as bad as their friends. That was what they feared the most. The part where they would have to tell them that they were tired of everything. Tired of partying. Tired of being chaotic. Tired of their help. They just wanted to have a break, whether it be for a week or even months. They didn't want to give in to them today. Not on the day where they would party like it was their last day on earth. The elevator ride was very quiet. There were some people that they knew that were on, but they didn't want to have a conversation with them. It was already stressful to think about the party, trying to have a conversation with the other would probably make it worse. They took out their phone and decided to text Pest, hoping it would help them be at ease.

PEST!!!!! <
When are you coming to the party? <
It's going to be fun!!!!! >:D

> Give me an hour or two.
> The subways are packed today.

Aww :( <
That's ok!!!! I can't wait to see you!!!!! <

> Remember that I'm only coming for the bet.
> I'll leave as soon as it's been settled.

Bleh,,,,,ok!!!!! <

Poob put their phone back into their pocket, feeling a sense of relief after talking to Pest. It gave them a sense of relief that he'll keep them company even for a little while. The elevator doors opened with a ding, opening to reveal flashing lights with loud party music playing. Poob sighed as they walked out, mentally preparing themselves for the party of the century. It was a sight to see. People were dancing, drinking themselves silly, and just loudly having the time of their lives. Despite how overwhelming it was, it relieved Poob's anxiety. They didn't become a party animal for nothing. They slowly started to merge with the rowdy crowds, forgetting all their troubles as they enjoyed themselves. Strangers hyped them up as they did their usual at new parties, doing crazy stunts and showing off their good places trick of drinking crazy amounts of blogsy without hallucinating. They didn't have to worry if they were going to end up hurting themselves, not like they would have to go to a party tomorrow. Or the next day. Or even a week. They felt free, finally being able to party their troubles away.

Soon, Poob excused themselves to have a small break. They grabbed themselves a cup of soda as they relaxed next to a wall. They didn't remember having this much fun. It was like the universe finally let them have what they wanted. A party that didn't have to result in- " Poob! Where have you been!? " Poob's eyes shot up as they looked to whoever was calling out to them. " ...Oh, hey! I was here the entire time! I just didn't see you!" they said, waving to the person they now recognized as one of their friends. "Really!? It's probably from the amount of people who are here! I didn't think so many people would show up! " They said with a chuckle. " Yeah! Honestly it was fun to meet so many people! I even got to show everyone my most famous party trick! " Poob said with a smile. " Yeah! ...actually, we can do something even more fun right now. " They said with a smirk, getting closer to the noob. Poob stayed quiet, knowing damn well what was going on. " ...actually, I don't want to do that tonight. We can just party like usual! " Poob said with a smile, " Poob, cmon. Don't be a party pooper. " They said. " I don't want to! I just...I haven't been having those troubling thoughts since I got here. I think this party is helping me distract myself for once! " Poob said. " ...Poob. I'm just trying to help you. Who knows, maybe something will trigger them later on. It's better you take precaution now. Don't you trust me? " they said, grabbing onto Poob's cheek. Poob thought about it, really good. They needed to take Pest's advice. They needed to stand up and say for once in their life, they didn't need to have sex just to feel better. But the fear of their stupid thoughts taking over Poob's mind while they tried to have something nice for once got to them. It scared them. " ...Hey, how about this. Let's just have a quickie in the bathroom. A blowjob would do the trick, ok? " they said. Poob stood there in silence, soon sighing as they looked at their friend. " ...Sure! Let's do it! " Poob said.