Danielle's POV
"When is your birthday?" I asked her, taking a sip from the amazing red wine she ordered.
We were out on that surprise dinner. I'm having so much fun and Haerin is being amazing to me. No mood swings, she's starting conversations and just seems actually interested in getting to know me better.
"It's May 15th. What about you?" She asked me.
"11st of April," I said and she tilted her head to the side, "That's not so far away."
I placed my hand over hers, "I hate to tell you this but it's January. It is far away," I said and she shrugged, "Times goes by very fast. What do you want for your birthday?"
"I want an island, 5 cars, a mansion, a diamond necklace- I don't fucking know what I want for something that's gonna happen three months from now."
"You seem to know what you want," she said smirking.
"Don't you dare buy what I said. I was joking," she hummed taking a sip from her drink, "I'm gonna kill you if you go crazy like that," I added.
"I'm not gonna buy you those things," she said. I squinted my eyes, "I don't believe you."
She shrugged her shoulders then the waiter brought us our food.
We talked and ate the amazing fucking food. I had so much fun with her.
***
"Can you stay with me for the whole thing?"
I turned to look at Haerin and nodded my head, moving closer to her in the backseat as we were heading to the funeral, "Of course. I'll be next to you the whole time," I said holding her hand tightly.
She smiled a little and let out a shaky breathe as she turned to look out the window.
I rubbed my thumb over her hand gently and placed my head on her shoulder. I'm so glad she feels comfortable enough with me for her to ask me this.
"We're here," Serim said.
We got out of the car and Haerin held my hand very tightly which made me kind of sad. I can't imagine how hard it is for her.
We walked towards the church, my hand in hers. She talked to a few people as I did the same then we sat down.
Seola said some emotional shit about her mother alongside a few other people.
"Don't you wanna say something?" I asked Haerin. She didn't answer and just looked down.
"Mom and dad don't like her enough to let her say something," Soobin whispered letting out a laugh.
Even if it was a joke, it's really not the time.
"Haerin would like to say something," I said looking at Haerin who smiled a little at what I did for her, standing up and going towards the center.
She let out a shaky breathe, "Grandma was a really important person to me. I've never been close to anyone more than I was close to her. She made me feel okay when I was at my lowest. She noticed when I wasn't feeling okay and made sure I knew I wasn't alone. She was everything to everyone. Everyone loved her, she was too good. She's gonna be missed by many people."
She finished what she was saying which seemed to make many people cry but she seemed to be holding on. She really needs to cry and let it all out.
She sat down next to me and I held her hand, rubbing my thumb over it to comfort her, "Good job," I whispered to her. She nodded, "Thanks."
"I wanna take the day off tomorrow," Haerin said as we were eating dinner. I nodded my head agreeing with her. She needs to rest.
Her father shook his head, "No you're not. Your mom is the one going through it, not you-"
She cut him off, "Are you fucking kidding me?!" she yelled.
"She's my mom. I didn't see a single tear from you and you're acting all hurt and shit," her mom said.
"She's your mom but I'm the only one that visited her without her asking me to. I'm the only one that actually payed attention to her. I'm the only one that called her to check on her health. I'm the one that brought her the medication she needed and took her to the hospital whenever she was too tired but no one knew that right? Because none of you fucking assholes thought about checking on her!"
I saw tears leave Haerin's eyes, "She died not knowing any of you even cared for her but she knows how much I love her because I tell her that almost everyday. She's a fucking angel and all you do is fight with her because she asks you to visit her once every two weeks. Fuck you!"
Haerin stood up and went upstairs, I immediately followed behind her. I closed the door and locked it.
"Fuck them. They're fucking assholes. They're so fucking ignorant and annoying. I love my grandma and I know I don't cry much or show my feelings but that doesn't mean that I don't miss her every fucking second of the day!"
She was crying and yelling, "I miss her so fucking much, I just want to see her again-" she was breaking down, her legs were obviously giving up on her.
I went towards her and hugged her as we both sat on the ground, "It's okay, let it all out," I said making sure to hold her tightly as she curled up in a ball and hugged me while she was sobbing.
"Everything is gonna be okay. I'm right here," she hugged me even tighter if that's possible.
My heart was aching for her. She must've held this in for so long. She calmed down after a while and I kept gently playing with her hair.
"I'm hungry" she said laughing.
I looked down at her and she lifted her head off my chest. I smiled and rubbed her cheek softly, "Let's go wash your face then order some food, okay?" She nodded her head and we both stood up.
I took her hand in mine and went towards the bathroom. She washed her face and I gave her a towel to dry her face with.
We left the bathroom then sat down on the couch. I ordered us some food then looked at Haerin who was zoned out as she played with her fingers.
I moved closer to her and wrapped my arm around her shoulder, making her snap out of her thoughts and look at me with a smile.
"Come here," she let a tear roll down her face before she placed her head on my chest and hugged me.
"It's temporary.."
She backed away from the hug and looked at me confused, "..The pain you're feeling right now, it's temporary. It's gonna get better. I mean sure you'll get sad again but that's normal, it'll still be better than the sadness you're feeling right now. I know it hurts so much but you just have to give it some time."
Haerin let a few tears fall down as she took my hand and placed it on her cheek, closing her eyes and letting out a deep breathe, relaxing as I rubbed my thumb over her soft skin.
"And you're not alone. I'm right here for you.." she opened her eyes and held eye contact with me "..You'll never be alone."
***
"Hey that's mine," I whined when Haerin took my French fries.
"Leave me alone, I'm sad," she said eating my French fries. I rolled my eyes at her.
"This is the only time I'm letting this happen," I said making her smile.
We brushed our teeth and got ready for bed. I had to pee so she got in bed first. After I finished everything, I got into bed and wrapped my arms around Haerin's waist from behind as she laid on her side.
"Is this okay?" I whispered and she nodded her head, making me wrap my arms tighter around her.
"Thank you," she whispered, placing her hand over mine.
"For what?"
She turned around to face me and placed her head in the crook of my neck with her arms wrapped around me, "For everything."
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