Innocence

1] Bunny

Jungkook's pov:

" You have to marry the youngest son of Kim brothers only then your cousin can marry his lover." My father said with a distated expression on his face.

Hearing him all I did was stare at him, silently. What kind of a man he was even? What did I look to him?

" But that's so stupid. What kind of a condition is this? Why is my son going to marry just because someone else likes him! That's absurd coming from such a family." My mother,  who had been a decent parent to me since childhood,  she opposed the decision.

" No one is asking you! He has to marry so that my sister's son can marry his lover-"

" what kind of a lover that Yoongi is if can't fight for his love! And why will my son marry at such a young age just because of some stubborn rich ass?!" My mother shouted while I gazed at them fight again.

This was pathetic yet a daily soap. I sometimes went through the memory of my life only to pity myself. I
A normal person at my age enjoyed their college but my main motive to study was to get away from my parents.

I knew that if I wanted to live a sane life I must study and get away and that's why it became a sole reason for me to survive but this toxic relation never made it easy for me to study either.

In school, when I tried to study at home the chaos was so high that all I heard was their yells and shouts in the background.

At times when I heard them fighting many awful dark things came out of their toxic life which made me realize that it wasn't that they started to fight after I was born , the reality was that they were never happy from their marriage since the starting.

And due to this I even hated the idea of getting married.  The only thing-I thought-that I could take control over was , my decision of getting married but now I feel like laughing and crying and yelling because I was unable to do anything about the situation.

" Shut up! My sister is crying and weeping for her son. Can't this useless piece of shit do this for us ? Then why have we even grown him up? Isn't it his duty to help his family?! He will be living a luxurious life in that mansion but you both are stupid to understand the thing! Now---- listen to me carefully Jungkook......" he said bringing me out of my thoughts. His eyes were red in rage and he looked so awful when angry but it wasn't the first time when I saw him like that.

This face was just so common to me but still I couldn't cope up with the wilderness in those eyes. They looked so horribly awful. Disgust and distaste feeling them , always. And I didn't even know the reason  why he had those expressions to begin with.

What did he hate so much about me?

Did he hate me for not being the topper of my classes? Did he hate me for being an average student?

I tried my best to become the topper but it didn't happen. Am I not capable enough to live? Aren't people Luke me supposed to breathe?

He continued his words through gritted jaw and wide red eyes while I stood there silently. " You must marry for your cousin. You must marry to lessen our burden. And You must marry because I am telling you to! Got it?" He questioned making my heart thump against my chest loudly.

You must marry to lessen our burden.
You must die to lessen our burden.
You must marry to lessen my burden.
You must die to lessen my burden.

' Just tell me to die once you are tired of me. I will die happily. I promise.'

A jotted memory of few years ago came back and echoed in my ears reminding me of the promise I had made to him.

I promised him to not bother him once he accepts my death.

" As you say , Dad."  I said with the lump forming in my throat.

" what?! Are you crazy? No! You can't do this Jungkook.  You are just 20! He can't marry at such a young age and think about his future---!"

" There is none!!" I had no future for all I knew, I retorted when my mother's high pitched voice started to screech in my ears. And what was the reason to keep me with her. Its not like if she was enjoying my existence.

If my going away from their life made it easy for them I could marry. Let someone stay happy for sometime.

You see, I always envied my parents for they lived a happy and lovely life until they married because I couldn't enjoy a tad bit since I came in this world.

Their 25 to 30 years before marriage were fun and enjoyable but my 20 years of existence had been only bad.

And if my marriage could help them get out of the burden they are suffering from, I could be happy.

" I will marry him. If that's what makes you happy." I said and without looking at their faces I went out of the room and climbed down the staircase passing through the living room.

" Jungkook! " I heard someone call me from the seating area which made me crane my neck at the couches. Aunt, uncle and my cousin Jimin, they were sitting there most probably waiting for my father to inform them about it.

" Hey Jimin. How are you?" I asked smiling at him brightly. Jimin was a dear cousin to me. We didn't talk much to each other due to our different schedules and nature. It was like we weren't strangers but neither of us really knew each other. 

" I---I am fine." He said standing from his seat and then my aunt stood beside him with a desperate look. " How are you, bunny?" She asked softly making the back of my eye sting. I lump again formed in my throat and this time much more painful.

" G-Good." I didn't let my smile budge even a little as I walked closer to them while they stayed at their place, frozen.

We stood there in silence looking at each other's face in pure awkwardness. I took a deep breath before speaking. " Don't worry aunt. Jimin deserves to be loved and to live a happy life with the person he loves. " This statement was enough for them to understand the actual answer hidden. 

A relaxing smile spread on Aunt's face while uncle didn't even glance at me. Maybe he pitied me and was sorry because he knew my condition more than anyone did. " Thank you so much, bunny." She flashed a smile to which I nodded and sighed softly. 

" B-but you have to marry before I can." He said with a look that I wasn't able to decode. Was he sad that I didn't have much time or was he telling me to stay ready.

" I know. But this doesn't depend on me, does it? All I can do is marry as soon as possible, it's just that it doesn't depend on me. So you decide. OK?" My words didn't stick in my throat anymore. 

" I have to go somewhere. so...?" I trailed out.

" Oh yeah, sure." Aunt smiled.

 I walked out of the house with the smile fading away. But somehow I felt relieved.

Relieved that many could be happy by this marriage.