Our Love

Adjusting

Krit's POV

I know something has been bothering Lop since that night we became a Trio. He seems to shy away from Ruj during sex. I know Ruj didn't hurt him that night and he never would, but I have noticed that he is fine doing the deed with just me when Ruj is on duty, but Ruj has mentioned to me that Lop just sleeps when I am on duty and the only time, he participates in sex is when all three of us are together. I am hoping he talks to one of us. Preferably Ruj, because honestly, I wouldn't know what to tell him. I mean when Ruj and I had this conversation a few days ago. I told him I had no idea, and if he was worried about it, he should speak with Lop.

Lops POV

It has been a few weeks since we went to the cabin. Ruj is a demanding lover. He likes to be in control. I have noticed he is pretty rough with Krit while we are making out. This scares me as I know I won't be be able to handle it. I tried to speak with Khom about it, but he told me I needed to speak with Krit and Ruj. Since Ruj is on duty I have decided to speak with Krit. I find him in the living room watching TV. "Krit, can we talk?" "Is something wrong? Are you sick? Do I need to get Ruj?" "No, I am fine just wanted to talk." "Alright. Don't scare me like that." "I didn't mean to scare you. Really, I am fine." "Maybe next time start with, I am fine, but I have something on my mind." "Seriously Krit, is that how you speak with Ruj?" "No, that is not how I speak with Ruj. So, what is on your mind?" "Is Ruj going to expect me to be into the rough sex like he is with you?" "No, I have grown to love it. It was a little tough at first, but after a few times, I enjoy it." "Wait, you mean he forced you to do it. What if he wants that from me?" I start to cry; I know I can't handle it. I just can't see myself doing that. What am I supposed to do? I feel Krit come up behind me and pull me into a hug. I feel safe. "Krit, if I say no, will he still insist?" "Baby, I like it rough. I like being dictated to in that area. Neither him nor I will ask that of you." "Are you sure?" "Yes, if at any point in our relationship, we ask or insist that you do something that you are not comfortable with, then you let the other know or go to Khom or Kamol. They will set us straight. Now, dry up your tears before Ruj thinks I made you cry." Krit holds me until I calm down then tells me he is going on a food run. I just laugh as I know he is going to get fast food because Cecila only makes healthy food. The only time she makes stuff that isn't healthy is when Evan is here. He put his foot down about how meat is healthy, and we all need it.

Ruj's POV

I am worried about Lop. He has been off since we all came together. Well, off with me anyway. The closeness we shared isn't there anymore and it is almost like he fears me. I purposely took Krit's shift today because the look on Lop's face when he found out that were would be at home all day together was one of fear. When I relieved Khom from night duty he just looked at me as he knew that Krit was supposed to be on duty today, but I made an excuse that Krit wasn't feeling well. I promised Kamol that us three being together wouldn't affect our work. I don't know how to tell him Lop has changed. The last time that Krit was on night duty and Lop and I were just home, Lop slept downstairs on the couch in his pad. Krit had to go down and wake him for breakfast. I asked Krit what he does when they are home by themselves and I was shocked to learn that they have sex, watch movies, and do the things they always had done. I have begun to wonder if I did something wrong. I notice Kamol coming towards me. I am praying he hasn't heard that something is wrong with Lop. "Ruj, I thought Krit was on duty?" "Sorry, boss, he isn't feeling well." "Well, I hope he gets better soon because Evan wants him in Russia in 4 days." Shit, I think to myself. This is not good. Lop is going to end up living in his pad or I will have to move into the guardhouse. I must have been making weird facial expressions because the next words out of Kamol shocked me. "Ruj, are you alright?" "Yeah, I am fine why?" "Never mind. I am going to text Liam to finish the shift. I think you need to go home and lie down. Whatever Krit has, I think you caught it too." With that Kamol walks away and in a few minutes, Liam shows up to replace me.