Our Love

🔞Krit's Breakdown🔞

Krit's POV

Ruj isn't backing down. I have no idea if we are still in a relationship. He said he would always love me and forgive me, but I think I finally crossed his line. He no longer trusts me. He is spending more time with Lop, which is good, but I am jealous because I know I can't even go near him. I guess I don't trust myself not to kiss him or do more. Ruj was right, I wouldn't have stopped at just kissing him that night. I wanted him so bad. It is almost like Lop has become an obsession. Khom must have figured it out because Lop and I are never scheduled together. He hasn't said much to me, but I know he is aware that I kissed Lop on duty. It shouldn't have been a big deal as Ruj and I have both kissed while on duty before, but it seems to be different with Lop.

I am just about to get off duty and decide to go sit on the bench in front of the Tigers. Lop and Ruj went out to the movies. I can say I am jealous, but it is good that they are doing things together. I just wish Ruj would do things with me again. We might sleep in the same bed, but we really don't. I miss the cuddles, the morning kisses, and the pats on my head to mess up my hair. Actually, I think I am going to move into the other room today. It has been a month, and nothing has changed. I had hoped since Ruj's hand was healed that things would change, but it seems in Ruj's eyes, I am just a roommate.

Kamol comes out from visiting Whipped Cream and Klemo. He comes over and sits beside me. "You look like you are deep in thought? Anything I can help with?" "Can you turn back time, if not, then no you can't help me this time." "Well, you know where I am in case want to talk. Oh, and we are going to the hotel this weekend. I have some business to take care of and Khom needs new scenery." I just watched Kamol walk away a little confused by why Khom would need new scenery, but if Kamol said it, then it must be so. I wish Ruj and I were as in touch with each other as Kamol and Khom. They aren't even in a relationship yet; they know how to help each other and rarely are upset. I decide to get up and go back to the mansion for some breakfast. Sophia took the week off, so we are all taking turns cooking. Khom was making breakfast today. I can smell the bacon as I approach the mansion. Finally, something that isn't organic or plant-like. Sophia thinks she is going to keep us all healthy by feeding us plants or plant products. I hope Khom got tons of bacon because I know I am going to pig out on it.

I walk back to my house completely full. I am pretty sure all of us guards ate too much. Kamol even came and ate with us. I wonder if he sent Sophia on a week's vacation so we could get some real food. He should have a talk with her. A little bit of greasy meat is not going to kill us. Going out on a mission is what could kill us. I am just about to enter the house when I see Ruj coming out of it. I decide to break the ice and ask him for a hug. I mean a hug shouldn't be too hard right. "Krit I am going on duty. Just go get some sleep" Well, I guess a hug is too much to ask for. I decided not to go to bed. I moved everything out of our shared room and put it all in the room down the hall. It isn't the room that Lop used when he was here either. That is his room. I just moved into the room that we never really used. After I got everything moved, I finally went to bed to get some sleep.

Ruj's POV

I have already forgiven Krit, but I just can't treat him the same way. I still love him and staying away from him hurts me deep inside, but sometimes Love Hurts. Lop is actually fun to hang out with. We have quite a bit in common with the types of movies, music, and other hobbies. I found out that like creating things. When I showed him the garage that I turned into a woodworking space, his eyes couldn't have gotten any bigger. I still haven't figured out if my feelings for him are romantic or brotherly. Spending time with him I hope helps me figure it out. It also gives us time to get to know each other. Krit should be doing this, but he hasn't been around Lop since the kiss while on duty a couple weeks ago. I am kind of glad that Kamol is going to the hotel this weekend. I need a change of scenery and I think Lop is staying here at the mansion with Liam. Hopefully Krit and I will find some time to talk.