loving the way you breathe

part 7-maybe ,maybe not

"I was just taking my phone and i .... Actually I'm just sorry to make you uncomfortable bye." Kazama got up with a scowl on his face .

Shin got up as fast as kazama and got a hold of kazama's hand  "I'm sorry  kazama please hear me out please, PLEASE. "Shin said in a quavering voice , looking down and then back at kazama .

"You don't need to i understand"

Kazama removed shin's hand but this time shin hugged kazama and kazama felt like he was shivering.

Seeing this State of shin he forgot his anger only emotion that overtook was worry , afterall it wasn't every day he see shin this vulnerable .

"It's ok shin calm down" said kazama putting a hand on shin's back.

"Don't leave please hear me out please , please! "said shin in a hurry. this time almost whispering , crying .

"I'm here take your time "said kazama in a comforting voice .

It took shin a minute to contain himself and then he released kazama from his hold kazama sat down right after shin and supported his back like shin's gonna fall if he doesn't .

"I.. I can't lose you " said shin with a hint of vibration still in his voice.

"I can't either I'm sorry maybe i overreacted. I know it'll take you some time to understand this all I just thought you hate me now that I'm you know gay.."  kazama felt the need to clear everything.and realised that shin still can't lose him as his bestfriend and that thought made him a bit relaxed .

Shinchan instantly looked at kazama and then looked back down in disbelief.

"Are you crazy no fact about you can make me hate you , you idiot."

Kazama smiled .

" It's just that it's getting hard for me i feel weird ."shin whispered.

" We'll always be frnds shin if that's what you're worried about "kazama said rubbing shin's back a bit and now back of his hair too .They rarely have this type of serious conversation because shin never gets serious even though he shares everything ,it's mostly  just jokes on everything. One part of kazama was liking this .other part was cursing him to like it because he doesn't have right .

"And what if I don't wanna be just frnds ?" Said shin making an eye contact with kazama.

Kazama was shocked for real but it wasn't like he didn't expected this .
Out of all scenarios he had made one was shin reacting like this considering how possessive he was of kazama

"You're confused " said kazama now straightening up his back removing hand from shin's back.

"yeah what if i am but what's wrong with testing things out "

"So you want a trial dating? " Said kazama with a *unbelievable* side smirk on his face .

"Why do we have to name it anything can't we just do whatever we want."shin replied still looking very serious.

"So you want to be with me till you get bored ?" 

Shinchan looked at kazama with disappointed eyes .

"Is that what you think of me? "

"you're confusing me shin , what am i supposed to think ?"said kazama laying his back and looking away from shin.

" I'M CONFUSED TOO I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO" said shin loudly . And started crying again.

"Woah! Twice in a day relax shin relax ." Said kazama smiling a bit and holding shin again to comfort him.