Look. I know that most people enjoy summer and the time being off from seemingly endless hours of teachers going on and on about something you won't remember the next day. I know that people hate tests (as do I) and homework that has nothing to do with what you learning that day. I understand the frustration of having to listen and pay attention to something but having so much more interest in whatever you can find out the window or the doodle you are working on across the page that your teacher handed out. I know the struggle of facing people you hate everyday and they feel like they have to inform you of all the reasons why you hate every single one of those days you are together. I get why people hate school and favor summer. I don't really.
Me being the person I am, I enjoy having something to do and I feel useless when I'm doing nothing. I like learning about things. Trust me, I really hate people and I hate having to deal with school, but I like it? If that even makes sense.
Summer isn't all that great for me because where I live it's such a fucking shit hole that there's nothing to FUCKING do.
NOTHING. UNLESS YOU WANT TO GO TO THE SHITTY MALL THAT I'VE BEEN TO MORE TIMES IN MY LIFE THAN I'VE PROBABLY GONE TO THE DAMN BATHROOM. OR I CAN GO TO THE FEILD RIGHT UP THE STREET THAT I'VE FUCKING MEMORIZED EVERY USELESS INCH OF IT.
WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO WITH MY TIME?!
I don't know how long it's been since summer started, but damn it feels like a long time. I feel so useless with my time and my life. I feel like I've been doing nothing and I'm just sitting and vacuuming in all the food we have left in this house. I know that may seem like the perfect time to some people but not for me. I feel like a freeloading shit storm doing absolutely nothing. I hate it.
It may be a sin to say this but, I like school. I'd love it if I was the only one there, not like home schooling but like going to my high school and seeing all the teachers and being in a class room . maybe I'd allow my friends to join me .
anyway, main idea of this one: I feel useless.
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Ficção Adolescentewell climb aboard onto the roller coaster that is life and lets explore the inner tracks of my brain and try to find that one place that wont stop playing that song. thank you for your time.
