Fool.

20: Don't

* Arizona's Pov *

8 am

I woke up with my head throbbing with loads of pain and my ankle feeling a bit bruised. I sat up and scanned the room. I'm in a hospital??  I thought. My vision was still a little blurry, but I could definitely tell I was in the hospital.

Once my vision was back, I saw Wyatt, sleeping like a baby in the closest chair next to the bed. I didn't know how to feel... I was mad. Mad that he thought I was cheating on him with Miles. Mad that he got drunk. Mad that he would get mad even if I like miles, because this is the most affection he's showed me in what seems like forever. Just mad.... And sad.

Sad that he thought I was cheating on his with Miles. Sad that he got drunk. Sad that he would get mad even if I like miles. I'm a sad girl.

I didn't realize the tears running down my face. I tried to keep in my sobs, I didn't to wake him. Why should I care if I wake the twat or not?? He fucking hit me. Got drunk and hit me. my trust issues with him are plummeting.

I moved, which made he bed make a noise. Wyatt woke up. 

"oh fuck, Ari!" Wyatt said propping himself up and leaned on the bed. he took my hand and smiled widely."baby...baby i'm sorry. i'm such a dick head and I don't deserve a girl like you. you look after me like i'm you kid and it shouldn't be that way. I know I shoved given you my time and effort since we got here...but I was under stress... I know. i'm terrible with excuses. but i'm not lying. I love you Ari, I fucking love you. I know i'm a screw up, and I drink a lot, and I don't even think towards the future....but i'm sorry.... I stayed up all night thinking about what to say to you when you woke up... but this is from my heart. Ari, i'm sorry. I didn't mean to hit you." he finally finished talking. I could see his eyes get watery. he squeezed my hand and smiled again...proud of what he said.   "i see you're finally sober." I said, not in  joking matter.  I looked at him... cold and hard. "eh, er, yeah. not exactly the reaction I was looking for." he laughed a little awkwardly, realizing that I was serious. "please, leave me al-" a nurse walked in and interrupted my sentence. "Hello, Arizona Black. are you ready to go?" the nurse sid along with  few other questions. Wyatt left and was waiting outside. once I got out there, ready to go home, Wyatt pulled me into a tight hug. I shoved him off of me.

how could he think I could just forgive him like that?? first he was cruel to me and too embarrassed to show me to his friends, then he goes all crazy and punches my eyes out. I.... i'm tired of his bullshit. he's just a bullshitter. a twat. he... ugh. fuck. he avoids me then tells me he loves me. he could've done something... anything. all he had to do was grab my waist and tell me everything was going to be okay in the hallway. god. I don't even know him anymore.... did I ever? I fell too fast. i'm such a fool. does he really love me? of course not. fuck.

I stormed off to his car, hopping in the passenger seat. he followed me and started the car when he got in. he didn't say anything. there was  silence all the way back to the dorm. not that nice, enjoying each others company silence... it was awkward. there was a lot of tension between us and I couldn't shake it off even if I could. I saw him look at me pathetically. I didn't dare to look at him.

we stayed silent when he drove into the parking lot and he walked me to my room. before I was halfway in, he grabbed my hand lightly, pulling me out into the hallway. "Ari, call me, please? we need to talk about this. i'll let you rest, but Ari please talk to me tomorrow." he said and smiled at me weakly. I forcefully riped my hand out of his. "i love you, Ari...say it back?" he asked with hopeful eyes.

"i don't love you like I did yesterday" I spat. I slipped into the door way, leaving him out in the hallway. fuck him.

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song:

I Don't Love You by My Chemical Romance

one of my favourite bands. stole song lyrics for the story, sorry cx