Fool.

21: lacking

*Wyatts pov*

It's been 3 weeks... 3 weeks since I've talked to Arizona. I've texted her a thousand times and called her a million. I still leave her a good morning and good night message, knowing she's not going to reply. What does she want? Leaving her not being an option. I see her in class, but when I try to talk to her she pushes past me. I try going to her room, but Skyler always says "She's not here". I've been craving a beer...but I know if I have one my pain will still be there afterwords and then I would do something stupid. I made up with Miles. I've asked him if he's seen Arizona, he has, and when he brings me up she shuts down and walks away. That little bitc-...no. She wasn't. If anything I was.

Me- Look....I know you're most likely not going to answer, but we need to talk. My dorm at 7 pm :) xoxox

I know for a fact she's probably not going to come....or even think about. I'm not surprised if she'd blocked my number.

I keep replaying what she said over, and over, and over again in my head. "I don't love you like I did yesterday." That killed me. I deserve to be punched. The hell am I doing.

***

7 pm came...

7:30

8:30

9:00

9:30

I've had enough. I put my cigarette down and made my way to her dorm. I knocked on the door, hoping for her to answer, but of course. Skyler did. "Wya--" "where's Arizona. Tell me." I cut her off. This is becoming ridiculous. "I'm not telling you, so quit asking." She said, Now very annoyed. "I'm not asking, I'm demanding." I said and shoved myself into their dorm. "Why isn't she here?" I yelled liking around the room. "Wyatt, she's been gone for 3 days you ass suck." Skyler yelled. "Did you just call me....never mind. Where'd she go?" "I don't know, Wyatt. I really don't. She left this though." She finished talking and handed me a piece of paper. I ripped it from her hands, anxious to read it.

Dear Skyler,

I'm sorry to leave in such short notice. I just wanna take a break, Ya know? I told the head that I had a passing in the family. What a terrible thing to lie about. Don't worry about where I am, or how I am, or what I'm doing. Just know that I'll be back before you know it.

If Wyatt ever comes, give him the letter thats inside my pillow. Thanks for everything.

-A.B

I was shocked really. Why would she leave? She cares more about school than I do. If anything I'll be the one ditching.

Skyler went over to Arizona's pillow and grabbed the letter that was inside it. "Here." She said. He gave me a weak smile, now getting used to me being here. I grabbed the letter from her and sat down on Arizona's bed.

Dear, Wyatt

Since you're reading this I guess this means you care somewhat.

I don't know how to go about this.... Wyatt I didn't mean what I said the last time we have spoke. I was pissed off at you and angry.

However, this is not an apology if any sorts. I'm still pretty angry. You many think I'm over reacting, but this is pretty rational.

Alison told me about what happened. It really hurt. Drunk or not, it's not okay. You've avoided me ever since we got to this school. I know I may not be going about this the correct adult way, but I'm tried of always worrying about you. Worrying about what might happen next.

You say that everything is fine, that everything will be okay now, but it's not really. Your drinking has become a real problem. I see you in class before this, and you've been doing it everyday.

If you would like to see me, I'll be the place you took me in our first date. I plan to have something set up by the time you come. This letter was made on Monday, if you would like come on Wednesday. I'm not leaving til next month.

This letter probably didn't make any sense, I'm sorry for that. You may be pissed or annoyed or whatever and I'm ready to face that. I've been ignoring you this whole time. I needed to think.

A. B

P.s....bring ALL the beer that you have in your dorm. I counted how much you have while you were sleeping. Don't be mad.

I wiped the tears streaming down my face. I couldn't believe this. I tuck the letter into my jean pocket. I stood up and gave Skyler a hug, who was now about to cry too herself. I walked out of the door and ran into my dorm.