rando stuff that i think about now and again

background information 1

right so before all this happy sappy shit there was a lot of drama before then. lets begin shall we?

so all of it there was brooke. lets start on her.

now me n brooke go a while back but there was some things about a friendship that you would see a lot wrong with and looking back on it, its a lot more clear what the fuck that was going on that friendship. but the first week of college me n brooke we were just talking to eachother because well we didnt know anyone so, it would make sense there would be times we would muck about and not listen, but i think the time were she pissed me off was that she didnt come in and removed me from a groupchat although i didnt care about getting removed it was the things that she was saying. she said so much then starting blaming me for thing that werent even my fault or even accuse me of shit that didnt even happen, what a stupid bitch but nothing you can do about it but then again i went into a anger fit and brooke got a very angry call from me, lets just say slurs were said and well everything else under the sun but that doesnt matter, she doesnt matter to me anymore. although she was one of my closest mates, she turned out to be a two faced bitch. then randomly one day she fucked off, a different college even she left school. then i was alone but i liked my own comfort cause i met new people that understand for who i am and well that actually care and wont leave me when they get a boyfriend. you maybe thinking that have i cut complete contact with brooke? not yet. she still messages me now and again asking if im needing weed or wanting to hang out and smoke. but looking at weed now im not a huge fan of it not like how i used to be with it, i only smoke with people im comfortable with or special occasions. theres no need smoking everyday well apart from brooke she made it her whole personality same with one my exs sophie but we dont talk about her. ever again. or should i? i mean the past is in the past but theres so much shit she put me through that need to be xplained at some point but not now i suppose. 

maybe i should maybe talk about what actually happens after college.

there was a couple times were i didnt get the bus with my mates and i probably made some bullshit reason but real reason was that i was seeing my ex and well hooking up with her, yeah not my greatest idea.  but  i was single and very needy for well alot of things. 

but one is done for now.