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📍Manchester, Jamaica | Mandeville
A Week Later | Wednesday, October 12th
11 AM ⏰
I've felt like I was living outside my body these past few days.
Walking around separated, not necessarily in parts, yet not fully whole.
It was like my spirit had been disturbed, almost like the trauma of everything was too much to bear, that it had gone into hiding.
That's what grief does to you.
One second I was fine, fully functioning, and the next I was in the aisle of some random supermarket breaking down.
Not one second would pass and he wasn't on my mind.
Days felt longer than usual, and the nights even more.
I'd lost my soulmate.
I missed his touch, his smell, the sound of his voice...
How the corner of his lips would tug upwards as he listened to me talk.
I missed being able to reach out and hold him, feel him...
The love that man gave me knew no bounds, he was all in for me.
There's nothing Samir wouldn't have done.
Knowing that I would no longer have my biggest supporter in my corner, felt almost paralyzing.
Shit, it was paralyzing.
I felt stuck in this agonizing loop, replaying the night when it all happened, the suddenness of everything.
Hearing those shots ring off, screaming out his name, and receiving no response on the other end.
The tears came, and they haven't stopped.
I don't think they ever will.
"You ready to go in Amina?" my mother looks over at me.
The car is set in park, and her hands grip the wheel tightly, as her fingers tap lightly on the leather.
"No Mommy, me nuh ready enuh" I sob, covering my face with my trembling hand.
I wasn't in the capacity to drive myself to the viewing of the body this morning.
I needed someone here with me.
Mommy seemed like the best option.
It was heartbreaking having to give them the news, especially since they hadn't even met Samir yet, except for my brothers.
The conversation was chilling, leaving no room for a happy ending.
To know that they never got to experience him, to see him exist in life rather than death...
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Summer's Interlude
Romance"Ah yuh decide fi tek set pon mi enuh" I scream at him. "Yuh sick inna yuh head Sarai? Two ah we know seh ah lie yah tell" he retorts with a sinister smile. Shame ah kill mi... "You knew what I wanted from the very beginning, but instead you decided...
