How Do Jerks Say Goodnight? (Completed)

The Night I Was Caught Off Guard

Just when you thought that what you had was real and what you felt was mutual, the ugly truth crept in. Then you were left alone with no explanation as if nothing happened and you were like "What the hell?!?"

The worst part was you showing him how pathetic you could be when you asked him for his excuses.

Tuesday

08:11am

Me:  Hey, u awake?

Without waiting for his reply, I sent another message.

Me:  the "I love you" last Christmas... it's a prank, right?

In your head, all that's going on was it wouldn't have led me on if it...if it weren't... If it weren't for those three words, eight letters.

But still, I needed that excuse. An excuse you thought he owed you to keep you your sanity and move forward.

Just that one excuse.

Because sometimes, hearing an excuse from someone who wronged you is much better than accepting your weaknesses, lest your stupidity.

08:20am

Jervis: sorry if you misunderstood. its a group message with the I love you's to share Christmas spirit. Sorry.

His words stung, if it was really an excuse. 

Ughh. I am hopeless. 

At the back of my mind, I still had that string of hope that maybe, just maybe, what he said was a lie. That he was caught up in the moment between choosing me or her. But his answer was clear. He chose her.

...

"Check this out."

I was forced to listen to a song playing on the earphones my superfriend Alex had put on.

"She has nice vocals there. Hmm. The lyrics are catchy and the music is unique." Referring to a Clean Bandit song while browsing her playlist. "Seriously?" I raised an eyebrow at her.

"What?"

"The Breakup Playlist?"

"That Begin Again movie inspired me. You see it's what you called the after-effect."

"Uhuh. If you're not my friend, I would think you're enjoying rubbing this thing on my face."

"Hey! Ok. I'm sorry if sometimes, ok always, I make you feel awkward."

"I know. You have such perfect timing for everything. Except at love."

"Ouch!" We both burst out in laughter until our stomach protested in hunger.

"Time for some stress eating!!! Uh oh. Red flag." Red flag meant imminent danger. "Siri, the Jerkisaurus, I meant behind you. He's walking over here."

....

I was lying on my bed for hours after my date with Alex and my confrontation with him.

Flashback.

"Hey."

"Uhmm hey."

"I never thought I can see you here. Uhm, can I talk to you for a minute?"

"Aren't we talking now?"

"Oh... yeah right. My dad got promoted and bought a bigger house next town, much closer to his office. Mom thinks it's practical to move out this semestral break so that we have plenty of time to process the documents for transferring school."

"You're... you're leaving?"

"Yeah. Can't be helped but you can come visit. You, Alex, Bill, Joe, Marie, everyone. I'll throw an overnight party."

"Cool. That sounds fun." Liar. I was such a liar. I hated parties and I was not good friends with everyone. His next words never sunk in so I just pretended I understood. I nodded and said yeah.

Thanks to Alex who walked me home and hugged me before she left when I told her I needed to be alone.

Isn't it the best for us? The less I see him, the faster I forgive and forget.

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Jervis is capital J!

And Siri is... never mind!

So that's how I-love-you's can make you or worst, break you. Moral lesson: Next time someone sends you an ILY text, ask him right away if it's not a friggin' group message. Hah!

Anyway, guys, we're about to say goodbye to the characters of this jerkness-packed story. I know it's too soon yet. But, it's just the way things are. A story is a story with a closure. Will there really be a closure between Siri and Mr. Jerkisaurus? Or will another jerk-in-shining-armor appear?

Let's see.

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