THE LAST LAUGH | HSR x READER

PROLOGUE

────────── PROLOGUE , flesh and skin.

TW; blood, light gore? I am not sure.

"The first rabbit fell ill,
The second took care.

The third gets medicine and boiled them,

And the fourth hared.

The fifth rabbit died,

and the sixth rabbit carried.

the seventh dug its grave,
and the eight rabbit buried.

The ninth rabbit cried,

And the tenth rabbit asked 'why?',

The ninth rabbit said that 'the fifth rabbit won't come back alive!' "

I gnaw and tear at my own skin, to become pure, to become true serenity.

I beseech the sky, for everything and anything that could help me pull out what holds me down.

   "I am beautiful, I am ugly," I am whatever I decide to be.

Did you know,

I'd end up like this when you made me?

I hear somebody inside of my flesh screaming against the carefully constructed wall that holds and keeps me up,

  In desperation, I asked myself,

"Who is there inside of me screaming?

Was it the child who never knew inner peace?

  Or,

The adult who cries like a banshee?

I beg you to understand the result of your consequences, in hopes you'd end me.

   Was I just a carbon copy of the thing you desired?
A manifestation of humanity and injustice, all at once, that shouldn't have been seen.

People claim that pain is beauty, yet I ask, "what's so beautiful about tragedy when I can't even find beauty in my own misery?" 

I gave away everything that makes me a feeling, a human, a being and a soul.
My envy,my longing,my demise and everything that makes me feel so bitterly human.

I clawed my ways to the heavens, my skin and flesh crying down a bloodied liquid as I screamed for an answer that would never be answered,
"Was my fate sealed before I took my first few steps?"

I have lost all sensation in my chest long ago as I gave everything up for the feeling of being someone that has been promised for me, but my heart feels weak as chains of my past tightens its hold,

My body had forgotten how to die long ago.