Thrones : Falling For Snow

Willa - 1

"Lord Andrews announcement was a shock to many as he announced he would be staying in The Dark Kingdom for a year. The Dark Kingdoms relationship with The Snow Kingdom has been rocky for years, The Lord intends to fix it. Is Andrews looking for a wife? That question remains unanswered. His reputation is that he is quite a ladies man and it seems like the list of woman wanting him continues to grow day by day. Perhaps he will sleep with all the noble woman in the kingdom. This writer must say, don't let his handsome looks and charming personality fool you. If you're wishing for your heart to be broken, then perhaps you should fall for Lord Andrews" Lottie reads out. All of the castle staff was in the kitchen preparing for the day. "What the hell" Josie, a castle maid says shaking her head. "Who writes these gossip papers anyway?" I ask as I take the paper from Lottie. "I have no clue, they are quite fun to read though" She says as she grabs a muffin. I reread the section about Lord Andrews and roll my eyes. He is such an asshole, I don't understand why women kiss the ground he walks on. 

"A whole year of dealing with that asshole" Josie mutters. "Have you spoken to him much?" I ask as I take a bite of my breakfast. "Not really, every time I try to clean his chambers there is always some woman in there" She tells me and chuckles. "Oh that is nasty" I mumble and look down at my plate. "I've got to get going, busy day today" Lottie announces. She grabs the queens breakfast tray then walks out of the kitchen. Once I finished my meal I leave and head to the infirmary. I enjoy being the castle nurse. It was much better than being stuck in a war field, tending to the soldiers. 

I walked around the infirmary doubling checking all the inventory. I hear the door open and I look up to see Hans walking in. "Oh hello" I greet him forcing a smile. He nods at me then grabs some bandages "One of the boys got hurt practicing, figured I'd wrap him up" he tells me. "Oh, well I can do that, just bring him here" I reply. He gives me a look "I'm capable of doing that Willa". I look at him for a few moments and say nothing "Well alright" I finally say. "We are leaving earlier than we thought for our mission. We leave tomorrow now" He informs me as he looks around the infirmary. "What? Hans what about easter? We were going to go visit my mother" I exclaim. He sighs "I have my job. Anyway I'll see you later" He turns around and walks out. I grab the closest thing to me and throw it across the room, the bandages fall on the floor. "Some husband" I mumble as I walk over to pick up the mess. I feel tears start to roll down my cheeks. I sometimes wondered why I married Hans. 

Was it out of my desperation to have true love and a family? Maybe I did actually love him. Truthfully I have never been in love so wasn't sure how its supposed to feel. Surely it wasn't like this. I dread when I knew we would have to spend a lot of time together. Perhaps him going out of town for a few months was a good thing. I just like having him there as a buffer for my mother. Once I was done cleaning I checked my schedule and saw I had to give all the queens younger children their shots today. I packed up my equipment in my bag then walked to the third floor of the castle. As I was walking I was in deep thought about the whole Hans leaving situation. Suddenly I walked into someone and fell to the ground. "Whoa you better watch it ginger" I hear a deep british accent say. I look up and see Lord Andrews standing there looking down at me. He holds out his hand for me to grab it. "Why did you run into me?" I ask ignoring his hand and standing up on my own. "Well, you see this side of the hallway is for people who are on the right side going to the gardens, which is where I was headed.  You, ginger was supposed to be walking on the left side. So why should I move if you were on the wrong side?" He asks smirking at me. I roll my eyes "So you knew that we would run into each other?" I ask him. "Maybe so, maybe I wanted to run into you" he says with a sarcastic tone. I look up at him and we make eye contact. For a few seconds I see what everyone sees in him. His piercing blue eye were mesmerizing, he had very sharp features and a strong jawbone. He was incredibly handsome and he knew it. His white hair suited him perfectly as did his toned body. His muscles were noticeable and he wore clothes that flattered him. As if he knew I was thinking about how good looking he is, he started to laugh. 

"If you like what you see, you are always welcome to invite me to your chambers" he whispers. I feel me start to get goosebumps and I look away from him quickly. "I'm married for your information" I tell him sternly. He shrugs "That doesn't stop me. I can tell by looking at you, that he doesn't satisfy you" he says confidently. "W-what? Yes he does!" I exclaim. I felt my cheeks heat up and I knew I was blushing. Andrews chuckles "Yeah no he doesn't. I can tell by just looking at you, you probably haven't been touched since your wedding night". He says as he puts his hands in his pockets. "That is not true!" I insist. Damnit he is right and that is pissing me off. "I don't like you" I tell him sternly. He shakes his head laughing "Oh but I'll be in your bed eventually, see you around ginger" He says then walks past me and down the hall. 

I stood there watching him in shock. What the hell? I couldn't stand that man. His ego is so big and he just thinks he is better than everyone, I've always hated entitled people. I take a deep breath then quickly head to the third floor. I knock on the door and walk into the children quarters. I see the younger children running around playing. My heart yearned for having my own child. I knew I was meant to be a mother, but Hans didn't want children. Being with the queens children always brought me joy, but sadness as well. I see Raven standing there holding Grace. She had on a black corset dress and her black hair was in a updo. She smiled when she saw me walking over to her "Oh Willa, there you are!" She says happily. I curtsy in front of her "Hello your grace, please excuse my tardiness" I say as I set down my bag. "That is not a worry, I had to change Grace anyway" Raven says then hesitates while looking at me "Are you alright darling? You are so flushed right now!" she exclaims. I raise my hand up and feel my cheeks "Oh goodness, I am fine. I'm not sure why they are red" I say laughing, trying to hide the fact I was lying. Raven raises her eyebrow and nods, she could always tell when someone was hiding something. "Well, we better get started with their shots, it's going to take awhile" Raven says as she hands me Grace. "Sounds good" I reply smiling at Grace as I take her. I hold her close and cradle her "Raven she is stunning" I say looking down at her. Raven smiles "She is indeed" suddenly some of the children started fighting and she quickly walked off getting on to them. 

Later that evening I was in my chambers getting ready for bed. Hans said he was going out with the boys so to not stay up and wait on him. I walked over and sat in front of my vanity. I looked at myself in the mirror and as I brushed my long red hair. My freckles were starting to appear more as summer was approaching. Once I was done brushing my hair, I got up and stood in front of the full length mirror and stuck my stomach out. I liked to imagine what I would look like pregnant. I rubbed my stomach as the yearning feeling in my heart came again. The thought of never having children was starting to become a reality and I would be lying if I said it wasn't affecting me. 

I went and laid in my bed under the blankets. The moon light was shining through the windows. There was a cool breeze outside and I could hear the trees blowing outside. I rolled over trying to sleep, but I couldn't control my mind. It was all over the place and was driving me crazy. One thing kept crossing it, Lord Andrews. Why the hell couldn't I stop thinking about him? 

What made it worse, I was smiling while thinking of our conversation today.