Thrones : Falling For Snow

Willa & Andrews - 4

 The Morning After - Willa

The sunlight shined upon my face, waking me up. I slowly open my eyes expecting to see Andrews laying next to me. Instead I see that side of the bed empty. I sit up and pull the sheets with me to keep myself covered. I glance around the room seeing if he was in it, but he was not. Where did he go? Why is it bothering me so much that he was not here? I get out of bed and quickly get dressed. All last nights events were flooding my mind. The way he made me feel was things I have never felt before. I gently touch my lips at the thought of kissing him, his smell still filled the room. There was a knock at the door, that must be Andrews! "Andrews" I say as I open the door. Lucy stood there staring back at me "Andrews? Why did you say his name?" She asks raising an eyebrow. 

I stand there trying to think of something to say, I finally blurt out "Oh nothing, I just thought he was coming to tell me it's time for his stitches to get out". Lucy glares at me "Right" she scoffs "Did you see him after the ball? He disappeared after we danced, a maid told me she saw him entering your chambers" she says looking at me, trying to read my face. I force a smile "No your highness, we spoke but I didn't see him after the ball" I lie. She rolls her eyes and crosses her arms "I'm not sure I believe you. Perhaps you should remember your place nurse, you are married and you work for me" she smirks. I take a deep breath trying to compose myself "I'm aware your highness" I reply. Lucy leans in next to my ear "Andrews never sleeps with someone twice so don't get your hopes up, whore" she whispers then stands straight smiling at me. I glare at her "You expect him to marry you?" I snap at her. She flicks her golden hair behind her shoulder "It's being arranged" she smiles big than walks away down the hall. 

What the fuck was that? I shut my door behind me quickly, tears start to form in the corner of my eyes. Andrews wouldn't marry her, right? "Stop stop stop" I say to myself and rub my face. "You can't fall for him" I whisper as I get up and walk to the mirror, looking at my reflection. I decided that I need to find Andrews and speak to him. I quickly fix my hair then leave my chambers, walking down the halls. 

I walk past the vast windows that over look the garden, I stop walking when I see Andrews talking to Lucy. He grabs her hand and kisses it while looking at her. I felt like I just got stabbed in the chest watching that. Did I truly mean nothing more than just someone to sleep with? He had to feel the connection I felt, surely he did. My mind began to spiral as I watched them walk the paths hand in hand. "What is bothering you, Willa?" Raven asks standing next to me. I jump quickly to the side "Oh my queen, I'm so sorry you startled me" I say quickly and curtsy. She laughs softly "Do not apologize" she replies and looks out the window, watching Andrews and Lucy. I say nothing and watch them walk and talk together. "Is that bothering you?" She asks in a whisper. I look at her "I am happily married your highness, of course not" I answer. Ravens eyes sadden "Do not speak to me as your queen, but as your friend. We both know you are not happily married" she says as she reaches out and squeezes my hand. 

I start to tear up again "We slept together" I blurt out. "With Andrews?" She gasps "Willa, you know that mans reputation" she warns me. "I know I know, there is just something about him Raven. I needed him" I say ashamed. Raven looks at me sympathetically "Oh Willa" she sighs "Do not worry, Lucy is not ready for marriage. She says she is, but she has much growing up to do" she assures me. I nod then look back out the window "I need to forget him Raven, I am married and this path will lead me nothing but heartbreak" I whisper as tears roll down my cheeks. "True love changes people, if it is meant to be then it will be" she pauses "focus on yourself Willa" she gently pats my back "I've got to get going, find me if you need me". She smiles then walks down the hall. 

Raven is right, I need to focus on myself. If I'm caught up on Andrew then I will spiral. Hans will return eventually and I must be here for him. Andrew departs from Lucy and walks out of sight. I turn my back to the windows and take a deep breath, I know what I must do.