☆Sapnap POV:☆
"Who says I want to 'get better'?" I respond
"Well I mean- I didn't want to get better but it was forced upon me, and now I genuinely feel so much better, even though I didn't want to at first."
"Take off the hoodie." I say
"...what?"
"That's what coach marriot always says, right? Why can't you take it off karl?"
I finally turn to him, dropping my cigarette and crushing the butt under my shoe.
"That's completely different-"
"Uh huh, sure." I say, walking back into the house, to grab another cigarette, fuck, ill just grab the whole box at this point.
"Sapnap that is not the fucking point- just-" I pick up the box and open it, grabbing a cigarette and slipping the box in my pocket.
"Dude are you serious- you're gonna die of lung cancer before you're even 40-!"
"Mhm." I say, walking outside
"So that's it, you're not even gonna respond anymore?"
"Look," i turn to him, "you can't even roll up your fucking sleeves Karl, don't try to fix me if you're just as fucked."
"I wasn't gonna fucking 'fix' you- oh my god just listen-"
"No- listen to me, karl! Don't even act like I'm some broken thing that needs fixing okay- I just-" I realize I'm raising my voice, looking at his scared expression I lower it, "I just need something to control in my life Karl, something that I can choose. And this is that. If you don't like that I'm sorry, but don't act like you're better than me."
He looks up at me, tears in his eyes.
"I'm sorry I just- I don't know i- I felt-... bad-? For you? Not like... pity bad, but like, a reflection of me that I can try to help.? I know that's shitty sap I'm sorry-"
"No no its okay I get it- just, remember next time, please."
About to light my cigarette he grabs it, "I'm not gonna try to control you or anything don't worry, but you JUST had one sap, please wait atleast an hour or two for another." He says, putting it back into its box.
"Okay, I'll do better with simple things like that, but don't start thinking I'm gonna magically want to quit or anything" I say, walking with him back into the house.
"In a few hours my mom should leave for work, I can grab something easy, something small, like- soup or things for a salad from my house."
"I think I'd be fine with that." I smile lightly at him
☆Karl POV:☆
We've been just sitting on our phones with each other on his bed, I don't know when it happened, yet we're sort of cuddled. My heads on his chest, and he has one arm laid over me, like this morning.
"I'm sorry too, by the way." He says
"Hm? For what?" I ask.
"That stupid hoodie comment, that was uncalled for. I think I'm just worried about you too."
I stay silent for a second.
"I'm fine don't worry, no need to be sorry."
"M' Still sorry... what are you gonna do ok Monday when coach won't give you any more passes with the hoodie though...?"
"I have these glove things, they'll cover- um, yknow."
"Can you call me? The next time that you want to-"
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"You Can't Fix Me If Your Just As Fucked." Karlnap Angst
FanfictionKarl's been struggling for a long time, his mother being a drug addict and his father being gone since his mother even mentioned the fact she was pregnant, he copes with it in ways no one even knows, his mother too gone to notice, and no friends the...
