Teach Me

twenty one

ryan's pov

last night was wild. i woke up this morning with millions of missed calls from bianca but i didn't care. it was finally out. ariana and i could have some peace with each other but not as much as we desired. when we came home last night, we didn't say or do much. we took a shower together and i held her all night, mostly because she held onto me the entire night. i missed having her in my bed and inhaling her fragrance.

i got up before she did so i decided to go make some coffee since i knew she liked a fresh cup once she woke up. i had her favorite blend and i got up and made a pot. i decided not to wake her, simply because i knew there would be a lot of things we needed to deal with. she was gonna need a lot of rest for whatever was coming our way.

i heard a soft knock on the door and i thought about who it could be. i hadn't been seeing a lot of anyone recently because i was so consumed with ariana and the drama that came with her. i don't have any friends, i've lost contact with mostly all of them.

i open the door to see a familiar figure standing in front of me. i turn around, peeping at the woman sleeping in my bed and stepping outside, slowly closing the door behind me.

"cass, hey. i wasn't expecting you." i say, slightly scratching my head.

"ohh you have a girl in there." she laughs. "is it bianca?"

"umm no, it's actually.." i pause, taking a breath.

"ariana." she finished before i could.

"um yeah." i chuckle a little bit.

"so that's a thing again? since when?" she asks, exhaling slowly.

"well close to a month actually. i just hadn't told anyone, we hadn't told anyone. but it's not really a secret anymore." i walk with her as she makes her way to her which is car parked down in the garage.

"it makes sense now. i knew you didn't all of a sudden get that busy but i know how this goes." she gets into the elevator.

"this doesn't mean we can't still be friends, i mean it's different but i don't want our friendship to dwindle." i follow her in the elevator.

she stayed silent in the elevator, i kept looking over at her and she seemed to be in deep thought. i didn't say anything because i knew i had done this before and i honestly didn't know what to say.

i walked with her to her car when she turns around to finally speak to me.

"look, last time you broke my heart so badly. you literally left me for her and i don't know if i can be okay just being friends knowing you're with her. you need to give me time to think." she sighs, i can tell she's fighting her tears.

"i've known you my whole life. i- i can't just keep going not having you around. i wanna be friends like back in the day and i know things are different but you're still my best friend." i say, placing myself directly in front of her.

"let me think about it. okay?" she looks up at me.

"alright. i'm get it." i say as i pull her into me for a

she pulls away from me, looking into my eyes. we stood there for a moment before she opens up her purse to pull something out.

"well, i came over to see if you wanted to smoke. do you?" she pulls a perfectly rolled joint out of her purse and holds it up to my face. the smell penetrated my nose as i deeply inhale it.