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traitor

what about after tomorrow..yes I'm free then ..well good I'll pick you up at 2 ..wow wow 2?..yes?..it's too early..come on I want a full day with you..jeff you still have 5 days we can do the full day in another time marcous have another party I have to be there..as you like lizely..hey I'll try make it at 3 ok?..deal..ok see you....who's this?max ask..a friend._god I can't look at his face I don't know why but I feel embarrassing_.hey..sorry I'm late..you look even prettier when you're shy max said-god lizely don't smile don't I hope I smile because now I'm running like why I run god he will think that I'm stupid_
Lizely I'm leaving..ok see you..sure you don't wanna come? I mean marcous will be upset..no we talk about that he's good with it anyway I can't drink so I'll stay here maybe til I finish my curl..ok then see you ..hey flex..yes..moly will come next week make sure you look good and I wink to him he throw the pillow to me and said shut up and he leave..you like her I shout god I hope my hair will be longer so it be much better to straight it I finish my curl it's 1:30 I think I'll go to marcous's show say hi and leave yes good idea any way I will meet jeff at 2
taxi taxi I go there the show not start yet I go to backstage the guys there know me, they let me in ,I can't find max or alex ,I start read names ,yes this is marcous's room ,I open the door I hope I knock first, he's kissing agirl he's KISSING A GIRL IN HER MOUTH my body shake my tears fall. lizely max said I can't turn ,I can't look away ,I can't just ,I can't. he hear max saying my name, he's looking at me, things move like slow motion, the girl still holding his collar he move toward me I step back I can't move, just stay here say what you have and leave then. Lizely it's not what you're thinking about I hold max's collar when he said that what what it's then?ha?tell me you don't stop you was fucking know but you didn't stop him I push him away I look at marcous he didn't say anything, he's just looking at me. his hair look mess and some is falling in his forehead, I want to slap him I really do but I can't. I look at his eyes while I'm weeping my tears,..you don't even deserve looking at you marcous I put my finger in his chest tapping on it while I'm saying you're a cheater marcous, cheater. and then I leave god god why I'm putting myself into this things, lizely wait I turn looking at max.. don't let me see your face I don't wanna see both of you forever, liar. and I go out I get in a taxi I go to max's home I get abag down and put my things on it I have alot of things here more than that I have in my apartment I take the bag I put the key on the table next the door and I close the door I was waiting for a taxi - hey zee..jeff?..going somewhere?running away or something?I laugh I don't really wanna tell him that I get cheated on by the guy I start dating two days ago_ ..no actually it's some stuff I'm taking it home ..well get in the car he get down and take the bag and put it on the back and open the door for me I laugh ..you still the same..you like me when I'm like that..I laugh again yup totally the same he laugh too..we talk a lot we go to my home first I put the bag there and go back in the car we go to the stadium. you used to say that you will play basketball one day what happened to the idea?..god you remember that I was a kid ..you're tall enough to be a good cager ..I get tired easy so ..wow then you don't like basketball anymore?..not really..thanks god let's get out of here..I laugh we're here for an hour why you stay? ..if you look good you will understand that, that I'm trying to pay your attention..that take more than watch a basketball game and I laugh..wanna eat something?..not really..ice-cream?..hell yes he laugh and said still the same we eat Ice cream he's driving for a while I'm eating his ice cream now. he said what that make you remember?..hmm?..I said while the spoon in my mouth..strawberry Ice cream one spoon..for two I said loud he click the mp3 with a smile the song play deja vu by Olivia Rodrigo..it was one of your favorite ..that's right god I can't believe you remember this things..that why I used to fit your standards
Listing to my teenage songs with my teenage crush and watching sunset with him in somewhere to far away from my live now is the best thing that could ever happen.. I think I like you lizely traffis he said, I look at him he's looking at me, I used to always like you I didn't answer he start the car, and said don't answer to me now just give me a chance, I'll have your heart ..this day was the best thank you jeff..anything for you, well let me take you home, I shake my head olivia start singing again it's traitor , god this reminds me of marcous I turn it off..you're good?..yes..wanna say something?..nope..what happened??did he cheat on you?? I look at him with a shock ,he stop the car, wait did he really cheat on you?wow wow wtf god did he hit his head or something?..let's don't talk about that..we stay in silence for a while..zee..mhm..come with me..where?..to my trip ..what?..I'm serious it's just a 10 days you don't have collage and you will be away from him until you made up your mind ..I don't know jeff this look like..it'll be amazing..I don't know let me think..I want your bags in my car in a 5 days..I will think..ok I'll wait you he drive me home I open the door but wait where's my phone?did I forget it in the car?hell no please don't be on max's home it's midnight if I go now I'll absolutely met them there, oh actually I won't ,maybe it will be just alex ,yes they're working I hope so. I get in a taxi and go to max's home I ring the bell alex open the door he's looking at me he put his hand on his head and said god lizely where the hell have you been?do you know what was happening here?we think you kill yourself or maybe get kidnapped or killed he hold my shoulders and said you will kill us one day lizely ,ahh thanks god you're fine he hug me I have to call max he will die and kill you after that ..don't..what?..don't call him I come to take my phone and leave I'm fine I won't kill myself or something I'm leaving the town for a few days..what the hell you're talking about?..flex I have to leave I can't see their face all around me ,I hate them if you tell them I'll hate you too..lizely are you kidding me?they didn't come home after you leave ,I have been sitting in this couch for 10 hours waiting you to come ,they're looking for you in the town like crazy..I come to say goodbye..fuck you lizely are you stupid?..what you want me to do alex?ha?stay with them?,they lie to me he cheated on me and max cover up for him. what I have to do my tears fall but that didn't stop me from shouting and said he hurt me again, I allow him hurt me and max ,who looking for me like a crazy let him cheated on me and he didn't stop him why I'll stay?phone ringing alex answer and put it on speaker max said not in moly's house too god where the hell she go max said..what if she get kidnapped?marcous said..just shut a fuck up before I fucking break it ..I'm fine I said - I hear the brake - lizely?god lizely god he close the line I have to leave I said to alex I get upstairs looking for my phone I found my bag on the table I grab it and I get down again alex I shout he hold my hand in the back and I hear the tape he affixed my hand and carry me to the couch put a tape around my ankles. what the hell are you doing?? let me go..shut up before I fucking kill you you're an idiot just a kid acting like she's and adult.. go to hell alex I'll kill you..blablabla shut up he put a tape on my mouth I stay like that for a while he's sitting by my side putting my head on his hips while he's watching a movie the door open the keys falling to the table lizely I hear max ..she's here alex said he come to the living room..I'm moving alex still watch the movie he pause it when max look at me and alex is laughing she's crazy.. he set on his knees and hug me I still love his smell his body is warm I'm crying alex come with a scissor he cut the tape and max start move the one one my mouth I stand ..I will kill you alex I'll kill you until you die and I run behind him while everything look unclear because of tears ..relax liz come on let's make a deal I hit him in his stomach..the only deal I will make is putting enough  from you meat for the dogs in the street I move and take my bag lizely ..just shut up max ..just listen to me..oh yeah to cover you friend no thank you
ely..move..ely just wait let's talk..talk with the girl you was kissing..ely I was drunk..so?is this your excuse?move marcous just hell move he push me I fell on floor he's on the top of me alex and max come alex pull him away to stand and max get me up..what the hell you did?and he hit him on his face..stop max he's drunk..he's holding his collar don't dare touch her again I can't stay I have to leave ,this is a lot ,this all pressure on me, no, no, I know this feeling, I won't let you ,no no no tears are the main character and breathless is the hell panic attack I fall to my knees and try to catch my breath I have to breathe I have to breathe ..don't lizely you're hurting yourself he carry me upstairs on his bed a bed full of his perfume he's holding me tight saying I will be alright I have to relax he love me he call me butterfly twice honey 5 times and he also call me lily he said he love me like thousand times,  like all what he's doing is loving me .count help I read that so I'm counting I get that breath, finally. I close my eyes he's not holding me anymore he put the blanket on my body blanket not his. I want his blanket. I want his perfume. I push the blanket away not too away  he know what I want he's reading my mind somehow he take it I'm still closing my eyes I feel the warm and his smell finally his smell is here too
I woke up in max's bed I get out marcous on the couch by my bag I don't know where's alex and max I take my bag I open the door I go out I stop a taxi I go home I start to pack my stuff I will go in this trip. phone ring alex? yes alex?..where are you?his voice sleepy..home?..she's home and he close the line 10 minutes later the bell ring I open the door it's one of two marcous or max and I think it's max ,yes this is max yes?..can I get in? I just open the door wider and get in ,he follow me I set on the couch he set on the table front of me ..he was drunk lizely..you here to defend him?ok let's say he was drunk why you didn't stop him?you know that we're dating why you didn't stop him?..I will tell you the truth ok?..truth is all what I'm asking for ..I don't want you to date him..why?..he's not the right person for you lizely..but..lizely you deserve better..I love him god I hate myself..just find the right person for you someone deserve you.. I hug him god I hate when we're not best friends he hug me back door knock I open it, it's marcous I close the door but he push it and said we have to talk ..I don't wanna talk..well listen then he get inside..who allow you here?I said..me!he said..get out marcous..not until you listen to me..ok I'm listening..I was drunk lizely..ok?..I can't control myself..you can't also remember that you have a girlfriend right? ,Look marcous ,nothing you can say can fix that ,I just hope you stay away from me..I can't lizely I can't I want you..wtf is want me?you're such a disappointment marcous door knock I move to open marcous open first it was a small bouque I look around no one here I pick up the bouquet marcous take it from my hand max is here too - who the hell send this?he take the card and read <as long is I'm with you I've got smile on my face > zee please accept and let me see your stuff in my car] god no, this jeff absolutely ,I know that this is our song I know that he send this. but how I can tell them how?. marcous laugh and said cheating on you who the hell is the cheater now?Who send this lizely?max ask I didn't answer marcous get out the home I follow him max still by the door marcous, wait marcous I hold his arm he hold my neck choking me who the fuck he is?open your fucking mouth talk lizely am I cheating on you? then what the hell you're doing?why lizely?..I'm choking  he leave me and pull me home again max still by the door marcous relax marcous..fucking leave me max he pull me to the room god this is worst he see the bag he leave my arm and look at the bag he didn't turn. marcous let me explain it to you,  you're misunderstood..misunderstood?who the fuck will send you flower with a card about sex?..wtf?marcous you're insane you're sick is this what you get?..yes sure wtf is stuff on my car and this bag here?? What I have to get lizely?..you know what?I won't explain anything to you because you a miserable person and I hate you and ahh leave my fucking hair leave me he's holding my hair and suddenly I wish I had a straight long hair because god the curly short one hurt more tears max push him he  punch him on his face.. don't dare, don't fucking dare touch her marcous ,or you will miss your arms he hold my wrist hard it is hurt but I'm afraid more than hurt I'm out the house now in max's car he's breathing heavily god I'm destroying them god lizely..you're ok?he said hand me a tissue and brush my hair back with his hand I shake my head silently..who is he lizely? he said start the car..his name is Jeff I mean Jeffrey..ok?..he's an old friend..go ahead..I'm not cheating on him I swear..believe you but what does that message means?..you're not getting mad at me right?..depend..I will leave with him, he look at me, just for ten days he's coming back and I'll come with him and..are you dating him?..no no I'm not I'm just, god I'm just tired from this all of this things hurting me and..is this things are us?..not really max you don't get it I just ..ok you already make your decision..max he didn't answer and I didn't talk after that