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panic attack

I go back home and I'm happy that marcous not by the door. I have an idea. I will know who put that camera_ The door is knocking lucy?I ask his voice, "Come saying.. marcous he said I open the door not too much I open it just getting my head out looking at him yes marcous what you want..he's trying to hold himself I feel it can I get in?.. no..we need to talk and then he push the door my head slam the door not too hard but kinda hurt .. sorry, sorry I'm.. just said what you want and leave .. show me is this hurt?I move from his hand. He looks at me with an angry face or maybe not angry. I didn't get the chance to think because he said whose pants are this?.. mine.. he look at me with a smile and then pull me behind him until we get inside the room_ wtf are you doing get out of here he push me on the bed and get on the top of me I feel like my soul this if I have a one is pulling out and I'm on the arctic naked he pull up my shirt not too much just til my waist appear looking at the men pants logo ma marcous marcous what are you doing? get out of here, he put his knee between my legs no no no no just leave me.. shhh, I won't gonna hurt you.. marcous don't just let me go, please.. he moved his knee and said, "You're wearing a pad. You're on your period, right? I shake my head, thinking that he will leave me because he hates blood yes yes I'm on my period.. why do you do all these things ely? why will you go there and get you periodin a guy's home? Why? he gets up and moves out of the room. I feel like that soul comes back, but I am still naked on the Arctic.. lizely come here I go I don't want this happened again I look at him he said you was with that guy right? I didn't answer he said fucking answer to me lizely why you would go there wwhhhyy?he kick the chair why you didn't answer my calls? .. I was in the bathroom.. no you wasn't you wasn't home lizely .. I was here .. stop laying stop stop he hold my face with his hand and said I don't wanna hurt you lizely, really just.. how you know that I wasn't home, I said that taking a step back .. I knocked on the door a lot of times and you didn't open .. I was in the bathroom.. no, you weren't.. how you know?let me tell you how you know marcous you're putting a fucking camera on a fucking girl's room that how you know marcous
how dare you? how did you even get here god I can't believe you're doing that you're sick marcous lucy come and said lizely what's wrong?.. you see why I don't let him get in?he's putting a camera on our home lucy he's fucking watching us lucy we.. yes I know that he put a one.. what? wait what you mean.. he didn't put it to watch you he put it to watch me.. wait what you mean I turn and look at marcous his face was weird god no please no I really start like him no please.. we're dating.. you you and him?wait you're the guy that was with her when I come home?you have sex?.. yes and I'm pregnant, surprise actually I was want to have a party or something but - I get out I can't hundle this anymore I can't really someone is calling my name I don't wanna turn I go and set on the back ground it's a place that couples used to set on it but it's a holiday and the weather is too cold so no one here except me and the guy behind me- lizely? what are you doing here it's cold I didn't answer.. are you ok lizely? my tears are falling. I feel it .. hey hey, why are you crying? Is this marcous again? hey, just know that he really loves.. lucy?you was know?.. what?I'm still crying but a little bit louder.. he loves lucy max he love her he doesn't love me he was using me, max .. who said that?girl, don't believe anything you hear.. she's pregnant they have sex in my room max I see god just suddenly I can't breathe not because of crying there's something wrong I can't really breathe I start trying catch my breath but there is no air no oxygen I put my hand on my chest and stand but my foot can't carry me anymore.. what's wrong lizely? lizely I fell on my knees he sit front of me and my face start to change lizely just count with me ok? count look at me. I'm here for you, ok? I will always be here. I love you lizely ok?hey hey listen my tears keep falling and my chest hurt like breathing is a big deal not a normal thing breathe slowly lizely you're into a panic attack you need your breath ok don't cry just relax and know that I love you lizely I really do ok? I won't leave you never no one can hurt you as long is I'm here ok?finally I get some air and slowly the oxygen come back to the world I can't feel my body I lay on the floor and my tears keep falling lizely I didn't turn get up honey the floor is cold you will get hurt.. I can't.. want me to carry you? No, just I just need to stay alone .. well, let's get you up, and then you can do what you want. I get up, but god, my foot likes jelly.. you won't can move I can carry you .. you don't have to - a sound said - ely? get up, you will hurt yourself, and your stomach will hurt. I get up like this jelly become a stone now