Mid July ~ Lando Norris

Family

"Have you been crying?" He asks and I shake my head and look out from the window. I refuse to let him know. He will kill Lando.. I can't believe he left me. The thought just comes back to me over and over again.. Lando has left me.. I can see Charles looking at me like every second.. but it's okay.. he doesn't know anything. And I'm not planing on telling him either. We arrive at the airport and get into the private jet. I sit down on a comfy seat and Alexandra lets Leo get out from his dog bag. He immediately jump up in my lap. As I'm sitting there, hugging Leo, the tears can't stop falling. Charles looks at me very worried and nervous. As he goes to stand up Alex holds him back. I can hear how she whispers to him that he should let me just cry out. And that he should let Leo calm me down with his cuddles.

It's a 3 hour long flight until we arrive, and a half hour of drive until we get to our mothers apartment. I immediately rush to hug her. My beautiful mother. My only hope left is her.

"Are you okay pretty?" He asks me in French and I start sobbing. "He is gone maman..." I start to cry. Charles and Alex went to go on a walk with Leo after the flight so I just brush out in tears. "Did he leave you Mon amour..?" She asks with a worried tone  "yes" I try to get out words but it just doesn't work. I cry so much I can barely stand up. Suddenly Arthur comes down the stairs and his eyes go wide. "What happened sis?" He sounds very worried. I can still not talk to my mum speaks for me "Lando left her, shh baby..."

Arthur's eyes go dark and he pulls me close. "Tuthur..." I whisper, it's been our nickname for him for years, I always use it when I need him the most. It's very adorable cause Arthur is like a head taller than me so when we hug each other it looks like I'm his fucking kid. "Wanna come to my room? We can eat something?" He ask with a very kind tone "I'm not hungry.." I sob and he hold me tighter. "Let's eat something, Dino nuggets?" He say and I giggle, I think for a second before i nod.. "okay thank you.." he put some of them
In the oven before we head up to his room. He put me into his bed, start outer banks on the tv and get my nuggets. Arthur's bed have always been my favorite, after our father died we always did this, he let me sleep in his bed. He feed me my nuggets before I slowly fall asleep. I'm wearing a long sleeve to cover my scars but apparently it rolled up in my sleep. I can feel Arthur nudging my shoulder and I groan before I open my eyes.

"What did you do to your self..?" He asks with pleading eyes. I look down and quickly pull down my sleeve, he hold my wrists and slowly roll up my sleeve again. He run his fingers gently over my scars and then he look at me. "Can I draw stars around them..?" He asks and I nod slowly.

He get a black marker and draw small, big and everything in between starts around my scars. The song that goes something like "you drew starts around my scars" starts playing in my head as Arthur draw at me. After he is done I pull down my sleeve. Our mother, Pascale walks into the bedroom and she sit down on the bed next to me. "How are you sweetie?" She asks and put her hand on my leg. Me Arthur and Pascale talk everything through, everything from Lando to heartbreaks in general. They tell me everything is going to be alright at least 15 times before mom leave the room. Suddenly Charles comes in and I hide my face in the pillow. "What's up Y/n?" He looks at me with a worried expression "go away Charles" I whisper but that god damn worried man sits down next to me, pull me up in his lap and force me to look at him with two fingers under my chin.

"Tell me what's wrong right now." He say while he holds me "Lando.. left me..."

Charles who knows the reason why, cause Lando talked to him and Lando didn't want me to know why.. so Charles acts like it's a surprise.

"Oh darling, I'm so so sorry" he pulls me close and let me calm down to his chest. "Shh shh.." he ask Arthur if I had eaten anything before he holds me for a long time. "Please show him Y/n..."  i immediately understand that he mean my scars but i act like I don't understand "show him what..?" I ask and he raise his eyebrows "the scars" he say and Charles looks at me with a worried expression. "Have you been cutting yourself..?" His voice sounds scared and worried. I slowly nod and he looks down before he mutters "show me please" I pull up my sleeves and he looks at me before he pull me close.

"I know you miss lando but cutting isn't the right way beautiful, you could have called me, Arthur, Alexandra, Lorenzo whoever just to get help, we won't get mad, you know we just wanna help you Y/n" he say while he hold me I nod and hug my brother.

A few days later it's time for the Grand Prix in Monza, the biggest of the biggest for Ferrari. The home Grand Prix for Ferrari. The Tifosi is bigger than ever and I haven't seen a single fan that doesn't wear Ferrari Jersey, or yes one McLaren fan with Lando's cap on, which made me break down in Arthur's arms. But we don't talk about that. The free practices goes well for all of them except for Sargeant who ended up in the wall. The sad part was that the commentators was barely surprised.

Charles did a amazing job and I was very happy for him. I'm the end of FP1 it's Ferrari one two and one of the McLarens in p3, Max probably thought he was going to dominate anyways so he didn't really use FP1 as a practice. He probably sat and watched some Netflix in his car or something. Enough of jokes but he only did some race simulations.

Charles gets back and we go to the cafeteria in Ferrari and eat some lunch, in form of pasta and salad. I break down again before we head to the garage for FP2. I'm having a lot of anxiety at the moment, shake my leg, bite my nails and can't sit still. One of Charles mechanics comes up with a little thing I can fidget with to calm down. I smile at him. "Thanks" he smile back and walk away to work on Charles car.

FP2 is over and I'm feeling so bad I can't sit still. I want my lando. I want his hugs. Charles comes out from his car and wrap my in a close hug. It's tight, just how I need it to be to calm down. I love Charles so much, the best brother I could ever ask for.

Heyyy my loves, can you please spam me with ideas for the next few parts, I really need ideas, my motivation is almost gone again so please help me, I love you all❤️