𝓘 𝓦𝓲𝓼𝓱 𝓘 𝓦𝓪𝓼 𝓨𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓖𝓲𝓻𝓵 | cillian murphy fanfic

vi. mad liquor on your breath, my my

You taste like the fourth of july
Mad liquor on your breath, my my
I love you but I don't know why

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"god, thank you, Jennie" Cillian says, all his clothes soaking wet for the rain.

"Why did you need my help?" I asked
"Because.. Yvonne, my wife.." he makes a pause "kick me out of the house".
"And why was that?"
"Because when we fucked I moaned your name".

What. The. Fuck.
How? Why? Is it the first time? This is ridiculous, does he still love me?, well, I can't blame her, I would do the same thing if he moans the name of another woman while we're having sex.

"What?! Are you stupid, Murphy?" I whisper-yell at him since is 1AM in the morning.
"I'm sorry! I just- I couldn't stop thinking 'bout you, I'm in love with you Jennie" he suddenly bursts out.

Then I get even more mad, is he kidding me? No, really, IS HE KIDDING ME?

"oh, what the fuck" I say, rolling my eyes "you have a fucking wife, Cillian, and- and I don't love you anymore!" Lie. "We're nothing more that job partners, and that's it, so, you can only stay because your wife kick the fuck out of your house" I yell at him, Cillian is just staring at me with those beautiful blue eyes that drive me crazy "let me ask for your check in", I murmur, getting out of the suite.
..
As I come in again, Cillian is making some tea.
"Don't expect me to be even friends with you anymore" I say.
"Cmmon, you know you love me" he says playfully, that's one of the reasons I fell in love with him, and he didn't lost his spark.

I order myself to stay calm and I just roll my eyes as he gives me the mug.
"So, what ru gonna do? You can't still be with your wife if you're going to think 'bout me".
"Well.. I'm going to divorce her" he says softly "you know, Jennie, I still love you, with all my soul, please, give me a chance".
Is he high or something?
"Good night, Cillian" I say, going to the bed.

...

5 may

After that day, the thing got weird.
Obviusly I love him, but I cannot forgive him.
In the movie, the parts when he interactued with me (basically all the time) he had that look in his eyes.

That look when we were younger, when he would kiss me, when he would do anything to make me happy.

Deep down, I still love him, but I just.. dont forgive him.

But today something new happened.
We were on backstage, and he just came towards me, pushing me against the wall.

"Cillian, what the fuck?"
His right hand was holding strongly my chin, my head and my back against the cold wall.

I could smell his strong liquor in his mouth, he even had some of it in his lips.
Those beautiful lips I wanna kiss so fucking badly.

"Jennie" I could feel his desperation in his voice, he looked so hot.
"Please, I want you, I need you, I'll never leave you"

Shit. He got me. All of a sudden, his lips crashed with mine, hungrily kissing each other, me tasting the sweet alcohol in his lips.

God, if there was a thing I missed, it was his lips.
His goddamn perfect lips.

We continued making out for 3 minutes or so, his right hand never leaving my chin and his left hand sneaking around my waist.

When we finished, he looked at me, his eyes full of love.
"Jennie, I.. I love you, I really do"
He whispers, looking down at my mouth, then at my eyes, god, I missed that too.

Shit. What can I do? I can't just leave him 'cause I love him and SHIT. I just maked out with him, but I can't just say yes so easily.

"Cillian, I..." I make a pause, looking him in the eyes.
"You're not good for me, and I love you, but you did hurted me, I- I don't think I can forgive that easily, I'm sorry" I whisper.

He gives me a blank stare.
Shit. Shit shit shit. Oh fuck, DAMN.
What did I just do?
"Jennie" Cillian says, with that lovely, sweet voice and accent he has, taking me out of my own thoughts.
"Yes?"
"Don't ever fucking talk to me again".

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Hi guyss! I'm back, is a short one, I know, but I have A LOT to study. I promise after these exam weeks I'll be more constant on the story.

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