𝓘 𝓦𝓲𝓼𝓱 𝓘 𝓦𝓪𝓼 𝓨𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓖𝓲𝓻𝓵 | cillian murphy fanfic

iii. the world was built for two?

Lean in for a big kiss, put his favorite perfume on, go play a video game.
It's you, it's you, it's all for you, everything I do.
I tell you all the time
Heaven is a place on earth with you
Tell me all the things you wanna do
I heard that you like the bad girls
Honey, is that true?
It's better than I ever even knew
They say that the world was built for two.

tw: s3xu4l 4bus3.

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June 18 1991
1:56AM
I started to get nervous as the kiss started to get heated. Jeremy started pulling up my shirt
"Umm, we don't have to do this, Jem"
"Common baby, just smoke a line more and everything is gonna be alright" he said, handing me the cocaine, I just sniffed it.
Then he started to kiss my neck, then my breasts.
"No, Jeremy, stop it, please!" I begged while tears were running down my face.
"Mhm mhm, no, you searched for this"
I started to moan in pain, my breasts all sucked by a 30 year old man that I didn't loved.
He started to get down my skirt, taking it off, taking off all of our clothes.
"No Jeremy stop" I screamed, sobbing, but it was just one of my few begs.
As tears still runned through my face, I just started sucking his dick. My screams weren't heard anymore, it was just me, sucking him.
In that exact moment I knew that I was going to feel dirty till the day I die.
"My worst birthday"

...
October 13 1996.
2:32AM

I woke up in tears. All my pillow was wet, I didn't make a sound, just cried.
Alison was asleep, she couldn't hear me, cause I wasn't even sobbing,I didn't know that to do, should I wake her up?
Suddenly, I feel the urge to puke, so I run into the bathroom and start doing it.
I puked like a pig, feeling like shit, feeling dirty, I was so bad.
3:59
After an hour of being next to the toilet, I just got up, putted something on to cover my pajamas and then I went outside the campus with a cigarrette between my lips (as I usually do) and walked around.
Suddenly, I saw something in the park.
As I started walking over there I saw.. Cillian? The fuck was he doing at 4am in here, he doesn't have a room around here.
I just walk towards him, he only noticed me once I was by his side.
"Oh, my cigarrette smoker partner is here" he says joking.
I just rolled my eyes and shared my cig, as he takes it, I ask him "why are you here?"
"Well, I have a work to do with some parents of my class, we finished like 15 minutes ago" he says before he takes a puff.
I just rest my head in the wall, the cold breeze against my skin, causing me goosebumps.
"Here" he says softly as always. "Let me give you my jacket, hm?" Cillian does as he says, he gives me his jacket and I put it on.
We were close again, I could feel his warm breath against my ear.
I just swallow saliva as I could feel his veiny hands sneaking around my waist, pulling me closer.
Then he takes another puff, carefully so the smoke doesn't end in my eyes.
If I'm being honest, I was just looking for comfort after remembering how Jeremy abused me, but the simple touch of Cillian comfort me like 100 hugs of any of my friends.
As he finishes the cigarrette, he whispers in my ear;
"I need you, Jenn"
Cillian said, his hands never leaving my waist as he throws away the cigarette.
Our lips still brushing like the first time, but I know that tonight nothing is going to interrupt us.
And suddenly, I feel his beatiful soft and warm lips against mine, kissing me gently, as I surround his shoulders with my arms, forgetting about my dream, forgetting about my past, forgetting about everything, forgetting about everyone.
Then, looking for breath, he pulls out off the kiss, looking at me, looking at me with his blue deep eyes.
"Do you regret it?" Cillian asks
"No" I mumble as he leans for another kiss.

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May 08 1997
7:50 AM
"Jennie!" Alison shouts "You need to get dressed up for the results of the finals!".
"noo, I'm gonna keep sleeping, leave me alone" I whisper.
"Common, Jennie, just put a dress and that's it"!
I protest as I get up, going to the closet.
"Look, you gonna put that beatiful black dress with that leather jacket, we gonna go to grab a coffee, you're going to get the results of you finals, and then we are going to go to a bar and drink some shit to be fucking drunk" she says laughing, causing me to laugh too.
As I finish changing my clothes, I hear a knock in the door.
"Cillian" I thought.
I go towards the door, opening it and there he was, all beatiful, with his baggy blue jeans and his shirt rolled up at the elbows, revealing his vein-marked arms.
I excited go towards him, giving him a huge hug.
The feeling of his arms wrapped strongly around my waist and his face buried in my neck made me shiver, his warm touch invading my cold body.
"Hey Cill" I say gently "you did great at your finals, right?"
He shaked his head, indicating me that he failed. as I looked at him, I could see his eyes sad, not with the light that they always had when I was with him.
I just hug him tighter.
"That's not why I'm sad" he whispered.
I indicated Alison to get out of the room so we could get in, she just nodded and gave me a smile.
"I.. I never wanted to be a lawyer, to be honest. I always wanted to be an actor and.. well.. today I just got a rol I could play in a movie, you know? And I should be happy because now I can do what I love but.. now I have to leave you"
As he said that, I felt my heart broken. I wanted to cry and puke but I couldn't, so I just talked.
"Cillian, look at me, you have to do what you want, hm? If being an actor is what you love, then be an actor, I will always support you" I said, trying not to broke right there.
"Jenn I.. I'm really sorry" he said to me, caressing my thigh softly.
"I love you, I want you to remember that, even if we won't see each other, Jenn, you have my heart" he says, looking at me.
"When do u leave?" I asked, trying to calm down.
"My parents let me go but they had to buy the most cheap ticket.. I.. I fly tomorrow"
That's it. That's when my heart skipped a beat and slowly a few tears started running down my face.
"No, Jenn, don't cry, love" he said with his soft voice, caressing my cheek, I just couldn't help but crying.
Was I selfish cause I wanted him to stay? Maybe.

That same afternoon, we stayed just hugging each other, obviously I puked because I couldn't handle all that anger and nervousness.

May 08 1997
7:43pm
I was in Cillian's room, watching him pack all his clothes. I was trying my best not to cry right there.
I sat in his messy bed, leaning my body against his wall full of posters.
he looked at me, everytime he looked at me my heart raced, I know it is a stupid teenage love, but I still love and want him with all my heart.
He closed his suitcase and sited on the bed.
He leaned towards me for a big "last" kiss, I could feel something wet against my face, his first time crying in the day.
"I'm so sorry " he said between kisses.
"Don't be" I said before pulling out of the kiss.
"You're going to be such a successful actor, Cill, we'll meet again" I say, cupping his jaw.
"Cillian, it's time to go!" His father shouted from downstairs.
His flight was at 3AM in the morning.
We walked together until the door of his house, he leaved in a taxi, saying goodbye to his parents and me, not before kissing me.
When he leaved, I said goodbye to his parents and then walked to the bus station, Cillian offered me to take me to the university, but I said no, I didn't wanted to see him anymore, seeing him made me cry.
When I'm finally in the bus, I started crying, crying a lot, I never cried like that since Jeremy abused me.
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9:03pm
"Jenn, what's wrong?" Alison said, worry.
"He lefted"I whispered as she handed me a napkin and hugged me.

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Hi guyss, osleya here.
This is the 3 chapter! And here is where it ends the university part, you'll see what happens next.
I wanted to do this part as quick as possible, since the important stuff comes later.
Anyways guys, tysm for reading. 🤍

- xoxo, osleya