These voices in my head are so loud,
They are screaming at me and fighting with me, I'm bound,
They are telling me that I'm not good enough, I'm unworthy,
These thoughts racing through my mind are so unholy,
Every negative thought spoken, I always overthink,
Where is the strength I need to fight?
I'm lost and trapped in a cage of my own making,
What could have been down that road not taken?
"Just give it time, everything will work out soon,"
WHEN! Haven't I waited enough? Suffering this poison,
Haven't I given enough? Blood, sweat, and tears,
Haven't I been buried enough? Overwhelmed by my fears,
Haven't I been tormented enough? Mocked and betrayed by my own mind,
As all hope in me drains and all I care about is out of sight,
These voices in my mind are haunting me,
Saying my goals are pointless and will never be,
Telling my dreams will never be reached,
And that my ideas and designs will never be seen,
Telling my fears are real and searching,
My demons are out and wild and perching,
Waiting for the right moment to attack,
I wish I could leave and never turn back,
These voices telling me I'm a screw-up and will die alone,
Telling me for my sins in the past, I will never atone,
They are so loud and screaming and they dominated,
My own thoughts lost and I'm isolated,
I feel so frustrated and I want to scream,
I'm lying awake all night, wishing I could sleep,
But all I do is I cry from darkness to light,
Hoping every morning I'm not losing my mind.
YOU ARE READING
The recovery
PuisiThis is a collection of my poetry that I am writing during my depression, some are very dark and some are happy memories. I am going to try to publish every day
