Daddies (bxbxb)

Chapter 13: sleep over (1)

Once I was in my house I took a moment to breath and process the day I just had, I tried to breath slowly to slow down my heart that was beating out of my chest, when had this become so hard, I don't know why, I'm so worried, I'm so anxious, my mind never slows down.

Apparently the reason I take such bad care of myself might be due to me being a little, I enjoy feeling little it takes all my worries away, I'm not embarrassed or anxious, or distrusting when I'm little. And they're so much more open to giving me affection when I'm in little space, I want to get to know them so bad, it's just my brain won't let me, why is my own mind sabotaging me.

What if I keep acting this way and they get sick of me, and stop wanting me, what if they find a boy better, not insecure, not scared of affection, not shy, not.......me. I feel tears prick at my eyes at the thought, why was I crying over them already, why am I so attached, I strip my clothes off and get in the shower, taking a hot shower is always a good way to get my mind to slow the bad thoughts.

I let my tears fall as my body unwinds, maybe I should start taking my antidepressants again, would that make me less difficult to handle? Will it give me a better chance at being....someone... for them, someone they won't leave behind, I don't want to be left behind, I don't think I can handle it happening again, I don't want to ruin what they have either, what if I mess it up?

I finish up my shower, fully clean and no longer crying, i wrap a towel around my waist and ruffle my hair with another, getting most of the water out, before walking to my room, picking out some comfy soft mid length light grey shorts and an oversized white T-shirt that fell of one shoulder before grabbing a soft oversized matching light grey hoodie incase I got cold, I put on white socks and slide on my house slippers, I quickly brush my teeth and grab my sleeping pills shoving them into my pocket, I shouldn't take them now, it would be rude to fall asleep as soon as I got there before them.

I take a deep breath before walking out of my house locking the door and also placing my keys into my pocket and slowly walking over to their door .....knock......knock, gosh even my knock sounds hesitant, i need to stop being so hesitant before they start finding it annoying. The door is pulled open almost immediately by Jason who had a white tank top and black shorts with his hair dripping wet, his smile bright and eyes soft, got his hazel eyes, I could just get lost in them, he chuckles "plan on coming in cutie?" He asks and I blush and quickly walk in.

He walks to the living room and sits on the couch patting it near him and I oblige sitting close by but not too close, he grabs a towel that was set nearby and starts drying his hair as I watch, I said I would try to be less hesitant and scared, I should initiate something, "want some help drying your hair?" My voice is unsure and my gaze is on the floor "I'd love that Leo" Jason's smile is big and his eyes shine with surprise, I slip my slippers off and climb higher onto the couch sitting ontop of the back of it, with Jason between my legs.

I flinch from the cold from him setting his wet head on my thigh leaning onto it, I feel a small smile make its way onto my lips, I initiated something, he liked it, no no he loved it, I start ruffling his hair with the towel softly and gently, as I continue smiling feeling proud of myself and content with the current situation, a few minutes pass and his hair is relatively dry, and that's when Xavier walks out of a steaming bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist and my smile turns into my lips parting, and I can't help but stare at his glistening tattooed skin, so muscular and tan, he gives me a warm smile as Jason chuckles amused by my reaction, but also affected by the scene unfolding.

Xavier walks over his face amused, "hey! No fair, why do you get Leo to dry your hair" he exclaims sounding uncharacteristically childish and Jason laughs loudly before calming down "he offered" Jason smirks in triumph "when I come back you're doing mine" Xavier speaks leaning close enough that I could feel his breath on my ear, and I flinch again as cold water drips from his hair onto my exposed shoulder and I nod still in a trance because of the sexy sight infront of me, he chuckles near my ear and it causes goosebumps to flow down my arms and legs before pulling away and walking to their room, Jason and I staring at his sexy muscular back move as he walked away.

"Sexy isn't he?" Jason asks leaning his head back and looking up at me, and I blush having no escape since he was sat between my legs, am I allowed to say yes? Should I? Can I? "Yeah" it came out before I could stop it and my face reddens further, but he just nods and hums in content, soon after Xavier comes out dressed in matching black tank top and shorts, walking over and sitting near us before smiling and pointing to the back of the couch behind him.

I get up and hesitantly sit behind him and he leans back between my thighs and hands me a dry towel, I get to work drying his hair gently as Jason stares at us contently and my red face doesn't fade, "how was your shower?" Xavier's asks "it was good, relaxing" I reply softly "I'm glad sweetheart" my heart flutters at the nickname and I try to think of everything vile to distract from getting hard.

"Honey" Jason's voice pulls my attention to him "would you like to sleep in our bed with us or you want to each take a couch here?" He asks gently, and I don't know which to pick, "I don't know" my voice is quiet and my expression troubled "you can pick whichever you want Leo, don't worry" Xavier says leaning his head back to look at me and I nod, a few moments pass as I think, "with you?" My unsure voice is a whisper.

They both smile as Jason strokes my hair softly and nods, "okay then, let's get to bed".

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He's trying hard, so cutee....Hope you enjoyed!!