The lost love

Terry

** Written in Terry's point of view

Its been two days since the concert.. i miss Patti and Carson so bad it physically hurts. I hope they dont forget me. I dont wear the ring Patti gave us because i dont want to raise suspicions. I do wear everyday my beautiful bracelet as a reminder that they will always be with me..

As i snap the bracelet on, i hear Richard knock on the bathroom door.

- Are you almost ready Therese? We must be at my parents home at 12:00.

Reality hits me back each time he says Therese... even though its my real name and dont relate to it . I actually hate it.

- Yes I know.. I am coming out in two minutes.

- Fine i'll wait for you by the door.

I look myself in the mirror one last time. I look so ... sad.

- Okay lets go.

The car rides with Richard are always horrible. He doesnt listen to tunes and doesnt talk about anything. I cant even smoke in the car...
At least his parents live nearby so I dont have to stand this crap for long.

- Just in time! Mom will be proud.. Just to let you know she will ask if you are pregnant.. are you?

All i wanted to say was fuck you and fuck this im going to see the girls but i cant.. He was such a gentleman in high school..

- Terry?! Hello..?? Im talking

- Yes umh im sorry. What?

- Are you pregnant already?

Already!! Fuck you im 22!!!

- No no i dont think so..

-Oh well then.. i guess we will have to try more and pray more, he said that with the most disgusting wink

Try more is he fucking kidding me ! I hate it! God if you do exist fuck his prayers answer mine. Put light in my pathetic life.

- Yea, i said with a disgusted giggle which i didnt let him see

- okay lets go in shall we?

As we got out of the car he said to me

- Oh by the way, could you cook meatloaf for tomorrow?

- Yes but may I ask why meatloaf specifically?

- Remember last week I told you I had a new colleague and we were pretty friendly? His wife is in the committee.

- Yes i think i remember...

- Well i invited him over on Monday for drinks and a good hot meal..

- Oh tomorrow is Monday?

- Yes is that a problem?? , he said that with a hint of dont fuck with me you do not work so you have nothing.

- No i will get my hair done later in the week.

- Good then its settled!

- Yes of course..

I hate being so submissive but knowing his family and him he would easily hit me and not even regret it a bit. His mom ... i remember the first time i saw a bit of skin on her arm... it was all covered in black spots.. i knew right then that his dad was violent. And i am sure he would be too...

- Hello my beautiful son, said richards mom
And hello therese lovely to see you

- you too its been a while

Always the same old pathetic conversations..
I miss my friends so bad.. Girls please dont forget me...