The one who doesn't lie

Chapter 10

One month later.

Ever since that day I found out I could have kids I've stayed in bed. It made me depressed, thinking about all the things and time I had missed out on. Today is a new day though. I'm making myself get out of this bed and getting dolled up. I'm done being depressed.

I take my shower and get dressed, doing my hair makeup all of it. I'm not sure what day it is but I know it'll be a good day. I walk downstairs to find everybody in the living room. "Hey you, how are you feeling?" Chloe asks me. "I'm good. I feel good." I answer back.

"Are you ever going to tell us what happened?" I think for a moment before answering the question that's on everybody's minds. I sit down in my normal spot that's comfy and has my impression indented into it. "I'm not sure why I fell into a depression about it honestly. It could've been a lot worse. Basically the whole time I was with Derek he was lying to me." I say trying to not sound pathetic.

"About cheating right?" Mia asks me.

"Um well yeah but no. Not about that. So we both went to the doctor and when we got the call back from him saying what was wrong with us having kids. Derek told me that it was my fault we couldn't have kids. In reality it was him who couldn't, I'm fine." I say to them watching their expressions on their face. "Oh I'm so sorry babe, at least you know now vs in 20 years though right? You still have time." Skylar says to me.

"I know that's why I got myself out of bed today. I'm sad about the time I missed but I'm not going to miss anymore." I say with a smile on my face.

"That's the attitude." Chloe says.

Axel didn't say anything and I couldn't understand what he was thinking looking into his eyes. Maybe he doesn't want to have kids. Maybe this is where we go our separate ways. We've only ever slept together that one time since I've been laid up in my bed the last month.

"Um what is today?" I ask anybody who is willing to answer. "Saturday" Axel says looking down at his phone. I don't even know where my phone went. After that phone call I made to Axel that day I must've dropped it. "Oh. Are any of you willing to take me to get a new phone? I would drive but I haven't drove my car in a while it'll probably need some tlc" I ask.

"I'm sorry love we've all got plans. Axel could you take her?" He looks up at Mia and nods his head. He seems angry with me. Or maybe scared at the thought of me being able to have kids. I feel small just like I did when Derek told me I couldn't have kids.

We leave to go to the phone store and it's awkward silence on the way there. I get my phone and on the way out I start to set it up. "Can you pull the truck over? I don't feel good." I say to him. He doesn't say anything back just pulls it over. I can feel that salty feeling in my mouth knowing I was about to hurl. I jump out and bent over. "Are you okay" he asks me grabbing my hair for me so I don't throw up in it. "Um yeah I must've caught a bug or something I'll be fine." I answer him standing back up. "You still look so beautiful." He says to be rubbing my cheek with his thumb.

"You're crazy. I just threw up everywhere." I say to him rolling my eyes. "Yeah but it doesn't matter. You'll always look beautiful to me." I feel the heat rise up to my cheeks. I was blushing like I was in highschool. Getting back into the truck not responding to him.

As soon as we get I have to throw up again. I run inside straight to the bathroom, leaving my phone behind me. I throw up practically nothing, since I haven't even ate yet today. I'm sitting there when Axel comes behind me to hold me hair.

I get my heavy breathing down and the nausea goes away. "Thank you, I'm fine really." I say to him standing up to brush my teeth.

"You don't seem fine, maybe we should take you to the doctor?" He says to me.

"No, no doctor. Just. If I am still throwing up tomorrow then we can go. But not today." I argue after brushing my teeth. He nods in response.

The day goes by a little bit and I don't feel like throwing up anymore. I feel like I never even got sick actually. Probably just a 24 hour bug.

"How are you feeling" Axel asks me, walking into my room as I'm cleaning it. "I feel fine really, was probably just a bug."

"Do you think we can talk before everybody else gets home?" I keep cleaning not turning towards him. The sweat starts to come along with the anxiety. "About what?" I ask quietly, almost too scared to ask.

"About us Jacquelyn, I know we've only been together that one time, but I can't keep my mind off of you. Let alone my eyes. I want you. I want you to be mine." He tells me. I can hear how serious he is.

"I just got a divorce almost 2 months ago Axel. I need time to myself." I say it without even thinking how it'll make him feel. I walk over to him cupping his cheek in his hand so he'll look me in the eyes. "Don't take that the wrong way. I like you, I really like you. I just need to love myself before I let myself.." I stop myself from finishing that sentence.

"Let yourself what?" He asks me. Eyes getting wide with so much anticipation. "You already know." I say to him letting go of his cheek walking back to do what I was doing before. Nothing at this point, my room was spotless. He knew it and so did I, but this man made me weak and if I kept staring at him I don't know what would happen.

He grips my hand and spins me back around to him so now our fronts are touching and we are inches away from each others lips. My breathing hitches. "Before you can love me? Because I'm already falling for you." He says to me. I can't respond. My mouth feels like I was licking on a paper towel it's so dry. I look down at his lips and back up into his eyes. What am I doing? "I can't do this Axel." I say looking down at my feet.

"You want to." He says putting his finger under my chin to lift my head back up. I bite my lip from keeping myself from saying what I really want to say. Suddenly his lips crash into mine. Fighting not to give in but ultimately failing. His lips still so sweet as I remember. So soft. He grips my waist to pull me closer, if that was even possible. Biting my bottom lip I moan gaping my mouth open for him to enter. Instead he moves his mouth down to my neck kissing every spot of it before moving down to my stomach and ripping my shirt off.

Why does it feel so good, I can't turn him down. Eventually giving in to the resistance. I pull him back up talking his shirt off and his pants. Grabbing his length in my hands and moving them up and down. "Fuck." He groans out. Take the tip of it into my mouth and licking it like it's a lollipop. Eventually sticking his whole length in my mouth which ends up making me gag. "Oh god I'm so sorry. That's so embarrassing." I say to him my face beat red.

He doesn't say a word just picks me up wrapping my legs around him like last time and putting me on the bed. Pulling my pants off in one swift motion. He sticks one finger inside of me while using his thumb to run my center. "Oh fuck" I moan out. "Do you like that?" He asks me. "Yes." I manage to moan out.

He puts another finger into me stretching me to eventually take his length. "Fuck Axel" I moan out again. Going faster and faster until I'm on the verge of cumming. He pulls out right before. I whine letting him know what he did which makes him laugh. Kissing me again and biting my lower lip. Ramming his length inside of me. "Ah" I moan out somewhat in pain somewhat in satisfaction. He fucks me hard and fast. Not like the last time we had sex. Last time it was like making love. This time he's fucking me.

He flips me over never taking his length out of me. Ramming me from the back. I can hear the slaps it's making and how wet I am. He smacks my ass hard. "Fuck". Grabbing my throat from behind and barely squeezing continuing to ram me. "Oh fuck axel I'm about to cum" I moan out. "Cum for me baby" he says to me in his sexy voice. With those words I did just that hearing him cum with me.

He pulls his length out of me and lays next to me. So satisfied I turn around to lay on my back. Heavy breathing finally coming back down to normal. I stand up to put my clothes on but instantly feel like I have to puke again. Running back into the adjoined bathroom to do just that. "We're going to the doctor now." Axel says to me getting his clothes on and grabbing mine. I don't argue with him this time as I really want to know what's wrong with me. After the feeling goes away he drives me to the hospital to figure out just that.