Eternally Yours -Chris Motionless/MIW-

a thousand years

Chris's POV

It absolutely broke my heart to see my love in the state that she is in. 2 days before her birthday we are in a hospital with her hooked up to tubes and me hoping that she would come out of this .

What made this happen? What's wrong with her ? Why did she do this to herself ? I couldn't help but cry. I called everyone and told them what happened we are all in the room just praying she will come out of this .

"She will make it Chris . She is strong ." Riley said with a hand on my shoulder.

"I love her so much Riley. I can't believe we are going through this right now. I just don't understand how this could have happened." I sobbed . She hugs me from behind and just held me as I cried .

I'm not usually a crier but in this moment I couldn't help it. My heart is completely shattered and I would give anything to make this pain stop .

Suddenly I felt a squeeze on my hand and I turn and see her open her eyes. Riley gasped and ran to go get the doctor. Since there was a tube in her mouth she couldn't really speak but I could see the tears in her eyes.

"It's okay baby. Your okay. Thank God your awake. I don't know what I would done if you didn't." I said as I patted her head, stroking her hair gently.

"You gave us all a scare little one . Right before your birthday too. We all were worried ." Justin said..

Suddenly Riley and the doctor came in and the doctor checked her over and did the tests he needed ,taking the tube out of her throat before clearing her. Saying she can go home tomorrow.

"Can someone get me water please. " She croaked. I immediately rushed and got her a cup of water and helped her drink it since she is so weak at the moment.

"I'm so sorry Chris ..I couldn't take it anymore. " She sobs and I was confused.

"Why are you apologizing baby?? Your okay and that's what matters. It just worries me. What made this happen ?" She grew silent and I could tell she was scared to tell me . So I reassured her that everything was okay.

"The memories of Felix were killing me and I was scared. I started to doubt everything. I wanted to end my life to spare you guys of having to deal with me anymore. " She cried and we all felt our hearts break all over again   .

"You should know we love you xandra . We would do anything for you. You shouldn't doubt that and resort to things like this. If your hurting you need to tell us so we can help you. I'm hurt that my own sister would do something like this. " Riley said .

"I'm sorry.. I shouldn't have done this. Can you all forgive me?" She said and we all nodded.

"Of course we can!"

"Now rest my love. You've been through a lot."

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Xandra was cleared from the hospital the next day and I couldn't wait for the surprise I have planned for her back at my house..

Everyone is waiting for us . We decorated the whole house in a Halloween themed and it's to celebrate her birthday. I hope that can bring some light to her sadness.

"Chris why am I blindfolded?" She asked with a chuckle .

"I have a very special surprise for you . Just be patient ." We pulled up the house now..

"You know I hate surprises baby."

"Just let it happen baby. You'll love it I promise ." I help her out of the car and guide her to the front door and we walked inside where it was quiet but once I took the blindfold off everyone shouted.

"SURPRISE!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY XANDRA!!!"

she smiled and covered her mouth in surprise. She was glowing in that moment and she was marveling at the scenery.

"Oh my God guys. This is amazing. Thank you." She then turns to me .

"You did this?!"

"I had help. I couldn't have done this without help." I said and she kisses me softly..

"Thank you baby.".

"Whose ready for cake and presents !" Vinny exclaimed.

In this moment I knew everything was working it's way to getting better again.

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End of chapter