all along

chapter 28

Martijn

I look around before ringing the bell. The streets are empty, her neighborhood is just so quiet and silent, it's better than around mine. I wait impatiently and eventually she opens the door. I smile and hug her. "Hey, how are you?" She asks me. It's been a week since my ADE shows and I've so time off now. We've been spending time together every day and I don't know something changed between us. "Good, made some music," I tell her and she smiles. "You?" I ask her. "Busy with the baby room," she says and rubs over her belly. "All alone?" I ask her and she nods. "People are busy so I have to do it myself," she says simply. "Could have asked me," I say and she scoffs. "Yeah but you have to get away a lot too," she says and walks in front of me the baby room. She tried to do the walls, by painting them.

"Give me these," I say and get a brush. "You don't have to," she says and I look at her. "Yaar, you can't do this all by yourself," I say and kiss her forehead. She just accepts my help and starts with something else. I'm painting the whole wall and she looks up. "That's nice," she compliments me. I look down and see her smiling. It's a very light sweet pink color. I think it's stunning, honestly this baby girl will be so loved, a loving mommy, loving grandparents, loving friends around her. I get out the staircase and look at the result of my work. "Stunning color, who did it choose it?" I ask her. "Me and Emelie," she answers and starts laughing at me. "What?" I say confused. "There's a bit pink paint on your face," she says and gets little cloth to clean it.

She's back and she says I should sit down otherwise she's a bit too small for me to clean it. I do what I'm told and sit down, she stands in front of me and cleans up my face. "Before you get question snd weird looks of your team," she chuckles. "Well honestly I don't mind," I say and she is still chuckling. "You don't mind?" She asks me and I look her in the eye. Since we shared that kiss it feels like a whole atmosphere has changed between us. She's done and wants to put away the cloth, I grab her hand and pull her close to me. "What?" She asks me and I just kiss her lips. I haven't done this for awhile but oh my god this feels so good. Her hands in my cheeks and one hand is resting on her leg. Other one is rubbing her back and we stop for a second. But I can't help myself and my lips to move to her neck, making hickeys and she whispers my name. "Martijn stop," she says and I do what she says. I catch my breathe and my heart is beating so quick. "I just don't want anything yet," she says and I look at her.

"What do you mean?" I ask her co fused, not understanding her at all. "I just want your kisses and want your hands all over my body but no sex," she says, "also no hickeys." "Like friends with benefits?" I ask her and she nods sort of. Even though I want her to be mine, if this is the closest thing I can get to her, I want all of it. "Alright," I agree with her and she smiles softly. Than she kisses me and I'm in love every time I kiss her lips, every time I feel these magnificent lips on mine.

"We should continue," I say and look around. The room needs to be finished in time before she gives birth. "That can wait,' she says and sits better on my lap, hungry for my lips. No sex or anything related to that. I just watch her and she pulls off her shirt and I'm trying to swallow. "Do the same," she whispers and gets off my lap. I pull off my shirt and she comes right back onto my lap. "Since when are you so good looking?" She asks me and I shrug my shoulders. Yes, I do workout a lot but I started to like working out and taking care of my health and body, clearly it shows. She's I think very honey, I' d never met someone so hungry for kisses and sex. But she doesn't want sex so I'm not doing it. Even though I have to admit I'm becoming honey too and if I could and was able to share the bed with her, I would've done it.

"Yara, we gotta stop," I say and kiss her lips one last time. "Why?" She asks me, she's still hungry for something. "I don't want to do anything I'm going to regret or you will regret," I tell her and she catches her breathe. "I know,' she says and her head is leaning on my shoulder. "I just want you very badly, I know I've just told you not to do anything because I don't feel comfortable enough while being pregnant," she says and I nod. "I get it, I totally get it. Don't worry about," I tell her and stroke to her hair, I put a piece of her hair behind her ears and admire her beauty. I do think we're friends with benefits now. We like kissing one another, We like to touch me another and so go on.

"I'm asking you this Martijn,' Yara says and I look at her. "Can you satisfy me?" She asks and I bite on my lip, I nod softly and she gets up. We move to her bedroom and she lays down. Her belly is big and I'm trying to hang above her. "After this we're continue finishing up the baby room?" I ask her and she nods. I start by pulling her pants down and start kissing her on the lips. "I'll do my best,' I say and she nods. My lips move to slightly and my finger makes its way. I'll insert one and she moans softly. "Oh. My god," she whispers and I kiss her cheek. This keeps on going and damn I dind't much realize how much I miss these intimate moments with someone, I've always dreamed of treating Yara like this while satisfying her or while having sex. She gasps for more oxygen and I press my lips onto hers. "Martijn," she whispers and seems like she's enjoying it.