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epilogie

Yara

Just cleaned the house, it's a simple Sunday, I did overall cleaning which I do on every Sunday to start the new week fresh and clean. Out of the window my smile appears bigger than ever. It's full on summer, it's actually the first time we spend summer in Netherlands instead of ibiza, not because of Martijn his shows or anything, no just because just month ago, in may, I gave birth to our fourth child, our beautiful daughter. This fourth, actually our third one was quite unexpectedly but we both adored her already so much, we wanted to keep her. She's actually born on Mother's Day. Out of y window I see Martijn playing with my eldest, Anouk, who already turned 10 years, our two boys who are called as Dex and Jay. Even though many people misunderstand them for being twins because they look like one another, Dex is one half year older than Jay. So they are 5 and 3 years old. Me and Martijn, we're both 34, have been married for 5 years and couldn't be any happier than what I currently am.
We can eat lunch outside, it's so nice right now. I put everything outside and Martijn notices me putting lunch ready. "Guys, we're quitting," martijn says and gets up. "Noooo,daddy why?" Dex asks. Anouk runs towards me and helps me out. "Thank you sweetheart," I smile to her I see Martijn lifting up the boys out of the swimming pool. Jay does not agree and throws a tantrum. Martijn speaks to Jay about his behavior probably, dex interrupts him. "Dex, help mommy out will you?" I ask him mad he runs towards me. "Can you grab the bread?" I ask him and he nods, already asking Anouk if she can get it. Jay and Martijn are walking to the sitting area all smiling, it must be good now.

"Hey," I say and he smiles. He press a long kiss in my lips and rubs over my hip. "Nice play," I chuckle and he shakes his head. "You know whatever," he mutters and press a kiss on my cheek. He puts Jay down and hugs me tightly. "Stop!" I hear screaming and Martijn sighs softly. I chuckle softly, "sometimes I wonder if our children can get along, so we can kiss once in peace," he says and I press one last kiss before he gets inside. "Dad, Dex is climbing onto the cabinets," I hear and Martijn is handeling the situation.

The baby phone is making noise, so this means Yasmin is awake and I'm ready to pick her up. "No babe, I'll get Yasmin alright?" Martijn says and gets upstairs. Together wit(my three other cuties I'm setting the table up.

We're already sitting down on table when Martijn appears with Yasmin. "Yasmin," Anouk exclaims happy. Everyone loves Yasmin. "She's a bit hungry," martijn says and I smile. I breastfeed all of my children s but Yasmin was a bit harder, so sometimes I can breastfeed her and sometimes not. Today not, unfortunate. "I'll make a bottle," I say and get up, Martijn sits down and helps out here and then with the boys.

I come back with a bottle and Martijn let Yasmin drink. The funny thing is that Yasmin is truly a combination of us both, both boys look like younger Martijn, Yasmin has the mouth and the form of her eyes from her daddy, but the color of her eyes and hair color is from me, her mommy. "Mom and dad," Anouk begins and we both look at her. Anouk has grown so much, slowly but sure she's turning in a beautiful young woman. "Can I sleep over at Rosie?" She asks and I look at Martijn, martijn looks at me, "when is that sleep over?" Martijn asks. "Well next week on Saturday," she answers and looks at me, hoping I would say yes. "Who are there?" He asks and I look at him. Tijn, she's 10. "Rosie, Bailey, Louisa, zoey," she says. "Bailey is a girl?" He asks and she nods, "it's girls only." "I don't know," he mutters. "Dad, I really wanna go.. please," she begs him, "let me think about it okay?" He offers and Anouk happily hugs her dad. "Thank thank you so much daddy," she says and he looks at her. "I didn't say yes yet," he makes clear.

He's extremely protective over Anouk, so he will over Yasmin when she gets older. We are continue eating lunch and after a while the boys are done and Anouk also wants to leave the table, "can we get back into the swimming pool?" Anouk asks and I nod. All three of our cuties are running towards the swimming pool. Yasmin is sleeping in Martijn arms and Martijn moves places to sit next to me. We"re still enjoying our lunch and watching our cuties playing. "What do you think?" He asks I look at him and grab his hand.

"Tijn, she gets older. She really wants to sleep over and they're her school friends. I think you should have said yes," I say and he was his arm around me, i snuggle in his arms and kiss Yasmins head. "What if something is going wrong?" He asks and I rub over his arm, "so what? She's becoming a young woman and she needs to make her mistakes and have space to learn from them. You need to give her that space. I know she means a lot for you. She loves you so much," I tell him, "it's time to slowly let her go, it's the hardest thing and I find it hard myself but she will turn out as beautiful young woman," I say and he nods, "you're right, deserves a loving daddy," he says and calls Anouk. Proudly I'm watching her coming to us an raising her eyebrow.

"Mommy and I have thought about it and you can sleep over there," he says and her whole face lights up. "Thank you daddy thank you," she says and hugs him. "I love you," she says all happy. "I love you too. But promise me to text me when you are there okay?" He asks and she nods. "Okay, well go play," he says and she runs back to swimming pool. "Did you see how happy she was?" I ask him and look up. "She is. Like I said you're right," he says and kisses me on my lips. Slowly Yasmin wakes up and we both give Yasmin our full attention, she smiles and we both smile back. "Did you know how beautiful mommy you are?" He asks me and I look at him. "What?" I say and he rubs over my cheek. "You gave me three children, one bonus child and I'm happy with all four of them," he says and kisses me and press a kiss on Yasmin  her head as last. "You as the best dad for my four children," I say and he smiles.