all along

chapter 23

Yara

I just arrived at work and I've been feeling better than ever. Even though I haven't spoken to Martijn in two weeks, I'm feeling quite good. Also because my morning sickness and all the other annoying symptoms have pretty gone away and I'm finally able to enjoy the pregnancy more. Tonight I'm going to meet up with Jade also because I've my third ultrasound. Right now I'm four and halve month pregnant and I'm becoming to feel beautiful and confident also. Like I'm becoming a bit more like myself.

I greet colleagues and see my boss standing close to the coffee machine. I'm goin to talk with my boss about the pregnancy and tell her I'm expecting. Nobody at work knows about it and I should tell them eventually. I mean my belly will grow the upcoming weeks. "Can I have a second with you?" I ask her and she smiles at me. "You look a lot better, don't feel so terrible anymore?" She asks me and I shake my head, "of course." She answered my question and I walk behind her. I'm greeting some colleagues I see on the way to my boss her office.

I sit down and she closes the door. "Alright, what did you wanna tell me?? She asks and sits down on her own chair, smiling at me. "Well. First of all. I'm really happy with this internship and everyone around me. I learn a lot and I think it's amazing you give me so much freedom as well," I start and her smiles grows. "But. Something in my personal life has happened which influenced me a lot but also influence my whole future," I tell her and she nods. "what is it?" "I'm pregnant, my partner who's actually the dad has left me. I've looked to a house and it!s kind of messy. I still want to continue this job and the internship. But at some point I won't be able to do that anymore," I say and she nods. "Congratulations," she exclaims and grabs my hand softly. "I'm very happy for you. Of course if you're close to given birth you will get maturity leave," she says. "Thanks a lot,! I smile and I'm ready to get up. "Yara, if there's something difficult or you need someone to talk to. Just let me know, my ears are yours," she gives me some reassures words before I walk out. "Thank you a lot," I say and walk out of the door.

I come across my work bestie Kendall. But I prefer calling Kenny. That just sounds way cuter. I give her a hug and she smiles at me. "I've missed you, you barely was here last few weeks," she says and I nod. "I know but Kenny. I'm pregnant," I tell and her whole expression changes. She gives a even bigger hug than before and says she's so unbelievably happy for me. I just nod, I mean I'm happy with the pregnancy but I got to do it all on my own. "Who's the lucky baby daddy?" She asks and makes that dumb winking things with her eyebrows. "My ex and he isn't really happy about it," I just tell her the truth, eventually they will know so I can better say the truth. "Oh," she just replies and we become silent for awhile. "If you need shopping advice or someone to shop with for your baby stuff, call me," she smiles and I smile softly. Just like Jade told me, a lot of people I've around who are all standing by me and helping me out whenever I need extra hands. "Work time Kenny," I say and she chuckles. We start working and I've a new project I can start with. Very excited for something else and also thinking about so,etching else than just the pregnancy and the baby constantly. I was fully dedicated to my work snd studies today.

After work I get to the hotel quick to fresh myself up and go to Jade afterwards. I put on some light make-up and I hear a knock on my door. I get up and open him. Someone fro mute hotel is standing in front of me with a whole bouquet. All kinds of flowers I love. From who is this? "Here madam. There has been a bouquet left for you," the man says. "From who?" I ask him and he reads out a card which is included. "Someone called sir Garritsen," he says and looks at me. How? How does he even know I stay here and why is he sending me a whole bouquet of followers I love? "Well thank you," I say and the man smiles. He leaves and I close the door behind me.

I'm looking at this absolutely stunning bouquet and smile softly. I can't help it. Why is he's so sweet and sends me this in the first place? My heart is beating faster than ever and I smell the amazing smell of the flowers. Hmmm I love it. I get the card of the bouquet and read out loud what it says.

Hi Yaar,
We haven't talked since two weeks and I actually hate it. It reminds me too much of back then, the few days before our huge fight which caused not seeing each other for years. I don't want that to happen again.
I want to apologize for my attitude and my rudeness. I shouldn't have behave and act like that. It came a bit unexpected and I didn't know how to respond to it.
I just want to say sorry.
I hope you could have find a place for yourself? How was the first visit of that house you talked about?

Sweet regards,
Garritsen

I just look at in a awe. He has apologized and acknowledged his ridiculous behavior. He has written it himself and I smile grows even bigger. Somehow a handwritten letter towards me touching my heart for real. There's something he does in me and creates all kind of expectations I have for a man. I kind of standard where I hope he will meet those standards. I just should text him, right? I need to Jade first before texting him back. He probably put his back name on it, so no one would recognize him actually writing this. Just like he wants only me to know what he has written, it's only meant for me. I feel my cheeks kind of blushing already and keep on doing my make-up.