Tommyinnit Oneshots <3

I didn't want you to grieve for me

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Synopsis-

Tommy is suffering from a not curable disease where he only has 40 more days to live before doing the suggested slash assisted suicide. But Tommy doesn't want anyone to grieve for him. So he does something that would make it less painful, but in reality it makes it harder for the people he loved.

In this one-

Death, extreme sadness (at least for me haha), pain, regret and no blood for the first time yay.

Tommy knew it was gonna be fast. The news of his death was going to pass as fast as the time he's left to live for.

That one part of Tommy's mind did tell him, to inform his friends and family about his incurable disease. But he didn't want any special treatment or grievances as he left the world.

To be completely honest, Tommy wasn't ready. He could never be. After all he's just 20 and he had a full life ahead of him.

The thoughts of death and the affect that it would have on his loved ones gave Tommy nightmares and panic attacks from the day he came to know about this thing.

Sometimes Tommy wondered. Why him? Why not anyone else in this world?

But god chose him to suffer from this, there must've been a reason. Maybe it was his past lives' deeds that he's paying up right now.

However in any given circumstances, Tommy did not want his family members or friends to experience any pain because of his loss.

So Tommy decided to make them hate him. In this way, they'd not feel any grief at all because they hate him right? Yeah stupid idea, but Tommy thought it was great.

Because Tommy didn't want to be the reason that the people he loved, cry. That's the last thing he wish for.

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Day 1, Tommy decided to first make his friends turn against him. He merely had namely 2 friends, Tubbo and Ranboo.

It was very hard considering they all were friends from more than a decade now and knew each other like back of the hand.

Tommy tried everything in his power to make them hate him, or stop talking. Whether it was the smallest thing where he "accidentally" broke their favourite mug or the biggest thing like actually being ridiculously different.

Somehow though, tubbo and ranboo always found a way to forgive Tommy and talk to him. Until Tommy decided to be the most toxic, egoistic, bitch-of an annoying friend there could ever be.

"I don't think it is working out Tommy" ranboo said, calmly on the 12th day.

"Maybe we could use a break from you" tubbo said, wording this less breaking as possible to tommy but he understood.

"FINE I DON'T NEED YOU NERDS ANYWAYS" tommy ended it there before internally celebrating his victory. 2 down, 2 to go.

Technoblade was not that easy. Yet on day 29th, Tommy managed to make the blade MAD mad. That's because he burned down techno's personal library which consisted of the oldest books that were originals with no copy to newest editions which had no other available copies.

"TOMMY WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU? I HATE YOU" Yep. There it was. Just what tommy wanted.

"DO I LOOK LIKE I CARE BITCH?"

To be honest, Tommy did care. It did hurt because Tommy was doing things that he strictly decided never to do so.

Phil was the hardest to convince to hate Tommy. Because he's just too forgiving and understanding. This man never seemed to HATE someone.