Close Enough To Feel You [L.R.H]

Chapter 17

Luke Hemmings

What? I stood at the door confused as I was still able to hold my keys until they fell out of my hands. I stared at the ground, crouching down as I went to pick them up as they went straight through my hands.

No.

I can't do this again. What is happening? I walked straight through the door as my heart broke more seeing my family in the kitchen laughing as no one paid attention to me. "Mom." I yelled out as no one looked at me, they carried out their conversations.

Oh my god. Not again. I rushed back out through the door, leaving my keys on the front porch as I got in the truck grabbing the ring and putting it back on. I walked back to the front porch as I went to grab the keys again but nothing. Fucking hell.

I sat on the steps trying to think hard on why this was happening again. I ran my hands through my hair as tears were filling in my eyes again. I went to push my foot against the steps as hard as I could to see if I could feel the pain.

Nothing.

"Fuck!" I yelled as I paced back and forth as I thought that I needed to talk to Renee. I ran as fast as I could back to Renee's apartment, running up the stairs as I walked through her front door. "Renee."

Nothing.

I walked through her apartment as I saw her laying on her bed, having her phone in her hand staring at something. "Renee."

Nothing.

"Renee." I said a little louder coming towards her as I saw what was on her phone, our text messages, her waiting for me to text her that I got home. She can't hear me, she can't see me, she doesnt know I'm here.

"Baby.." I said softly sitting next to her looking at her with tears in her eyes. Fuck.

My heart was shattered, I could tell that hers was too.

Four Days Later

Luke Hemmings

Nothing has happened since, my family was freaking out again and so was Renee. But I was still there. Around them, around her, trying my hardest to have them know I'm here. I'm always here.

I was sitting at home, in my bed thinking about why and how. I stared at the ceiling, hating to live like this again after I've been getting my life back together. I've probably gotten fired from not showing up to work, probably just lost the love of my life, and my family probably wondering where I have gone.

One step forward, two steps back.

I kept thinking about what happened a few days ago with the incident. I needed to get out so I walked and walked until I reached a destination.

The bridge. I was on the bank looking out at the water as I watched the sky change colors from blue to orange and to a soft pink. I sighed heavily as I kept wondering to myself what I did wrong?

I love Renee, why did I disappear again?

I have the ring on, why can nobody see me?

Maybe I saw something wrong, maybe she was telling me the truth. Maybe I was caught up in my own past that I couldn't believe her. I got up quickly to go back to her apartment to try again until I turned around seeing her looking at me.

"Where were you!" she yelled going to me quickly as she hugged me tight causing all of the air in my lungs to go away. Tears pricked my eyes again, my head hurting horribly. "Luke what the fuck! You scared the shit out of me."

"I-i" I said, holding her tight to me as I couldn't even try to explain myself to her. "I believe you" mumbling into her hair, feeling my face being wet from crying. She tilted her head up to me as she wiped my tears and hers also. "What happened, talk to me"