Ashtray imagines <3 (Euphoria)

STAY

Y/NS POV:

I walked down the street, I was exhausted. my hair was a mess, there were huge bags under my eyes, my eyes looked half closed, my clothes were dirty. I didn't know what to do with myself.

I was looking to my boyfriend, Ashtray, we sort of had an argument because of my drug addiction. but I couldn't help it.

I love him but I also love drugs but I don't know how I can quit. I'm terrified of withdrawing, I know how stupid it sounds but I just am.

I wiped my nose with my hand as I walked past, it was day time. my phone was dead so I didmt know the exact time.

I finally saw Ash and walked quicker. I hugged him tight "I'm so sorry" I whispered. "I know..." I kissed my forehead.

after a few minutes, my hands were wrapped around his neck while my arms were rested on his shoulders (please tell me yk what I mean).

"please don't fall apart, I can't face your breaking heart" he said as I looked into his eyes as tears ran down them.

"I'm trying to be brave..." I replied "stop asking me to stay" he spoke as he moves my hands off him. I looked as he walked away. tears blocked my vision.

I quickly followed after him "i'll get sober!" I said "I promise...I will..." I cried. "you keep saying this y/n. when? when are you getting sober? because i've been waiting and it hasn't happened!" he snapped.

"you're always saying you love me and shit, but do you? because you always seem to choose these stupid drugs that are ruining you over me! I mean look at you...you're a mess, and I'm not even trying to say it in a rude way. but you gotta listen to me... stop this drug shit. or else I'm gone" he said.

I nodded "okay..." I hugged him "I know it's gonna be hard...trust me, I know...i'll be here the whole time." he said as I cried in his arms.