After Xaden Riorson turns venin

AFTER XADEN TURNED VENIN

"Fuck off, Barlowe. We could never be brothers. I will never show any affection, caring or notice towards you, ever. This is a one-off occasion." I growled while tugging up my sleeves to show off my rebellion relic, and I promptly shoved my hands through my hair. Just before I turned, I could feel Violets sadness through the bond. I wish I could talk to her, but her shields are up, and Tairn must be reinforcing them, because all I can feel is Sgaeyl's sadness. She hasn't even bothered to look at me, or even respond to my calls to her.

There is nothing you could do that could make me stop loving you, Xaden.

So much for that. I was just trying to help her, save her, but all it got me was Jack-fucking-Barlowe in my head. I miss Violet. I miss Sgaeyl. Hell, I even miss Tairn. I miss her flying out to see me every two weeks, and I miss flying to see her. I miss everything.

What the fuck? I'm Xaden Riorson, son of Fen Riorson, who led the rebellion. Who am I to miss anyone? Any thing? Fuck, what has Violence done to me?

Right on cue,I feel the rock hard pathway in my brain lower and soften, and then feel the shimmering bond unlike Sgaeyls.

"Xaden?"

"Violence? You must hate me but-"

"I hate you. But I love you too. Come back to us. Please. No one has ever unturned venin but thats not stopping you-" I hear the strain in her voice, the pleading. But I did this to keep her safe.

"No, Violence. Come and get me."

"Riorson, if you don't come here yourself, I will hunt you down, and shove the fucking cure-when we make it- and then I, personally with kill you. Sgaeyl is going through it-"

"I could never hate you, Sorrengail. Never have. Never will. But you have to hate me. It's not safe if I come to you, I could drain you, and it would kill me too see you like that."

"It's killing me to see you like this! Make it fucking safe, or I will come there- safe or not, and take you back, safe or not, Xaden. I won't last a week without you. Your lies. Our arguments, all of it. You're my gravity, remember? Or has the power overflow already fucked with that amazing brain of yours?"

I can't let her come and risk the whole movement. Fuck, I am the whole reason the movement exists- to kill wyvern and venin. Maybe I should come up there and let her cure me-

"I cannot allow that, Riorson." A raspy voice now known as our Sage, says. "You belong to me now, and that is for the rest of your living life, which is in turn, eternity."

"Fuck off. I will never answer to you." I don't give him the satisfaction of turning around. I try reaching out to Violet, But Tairn has placed his shields back into place. Fuck.