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05

Ezra's POV

i didn't know what to do, i didn't know what to say, she's been cutting herself because of me for all of these years, i mean i hate her and all but i dont want her to harm herself because of me and my stupid decisions.

"answer me" i say as i look her in they eyes, tears fall from her eyes as we stand besides her car blocked off from other people, she opens her mouth to speaks but then she cuts herself off "i-uhm" she stutters as she looks down.

i sigh grabbing her chin and forcing her to look at me "is it because of me?" i ask once more and she shakes her head "well, not all of it..i started when my mother died but it got worse because of you" she says sniffling.

my heart hurts, my sister didn't raise me like this.

"listen to me" i mutter, her eyes find mine and she stares into them with concern "if i ever, and i mean ever see you doing this to yourself again i will strangle you" i say and her lips curls up but then she drops it.

i grab her hoodie and look down at the scars to see there status, some are fresh and dark red while some have scabs and others have skin on top of them which kind of makes it looks like a bump.

"what are you doing" she says and i shush her with my hands "im counting them and seeing what they look like so i know if you cut yourself more or if you cut over the others" i say and her eyes widen in surprise.

"Im so sorry" i say pulling her hoodie back down and staring into her eyes "you dont deserve any of this and it hurts knowing some of these are because of me" i whisper taking a step towards me.

"Ezra, its fine..i forgive you" she says trying to comfort me but i shake my head "its not, you cant forgive me because i dont deserve that, i dont deserve your forgiveness at all" i mutter staring down at her.

"Ezra, you apologized which means i forgive you" she says and i blow out a sigh of frustration.

"but you shouldn't" i say

"but i do" she says

"but you shouldn't"

"but i d-"

"shut up." i finnally says and she halfway smiles "does this mean you are going to leave me alone now?" she asks and i tilt my head to consider it, if i leave her alone then i wont be able to hear her voice, if i leave her alone i wont be able to see her.

"No, but ill stop bullying you" i say and she smiles nodding, when i hear her stomach growl i look down at it and glare "whens the last time you've eaten?" i asks and she looks at me "four days ago.." she whispers and my eyes widen.

Oh my god.

"get in the car" i say dragging her towards my car, she looks at me in surprise as i open the door "i cant skip school" she says and i sigh "yes you can" i say grabbing her and sitting her in the seat and buckling her seatbelt.

i shut the door and walk over to my side of the car, "can i play music" she asks as i get inside of the car and start it "here" i say handing her my unlocked phone, she looks at it for a while before going to Spotify and playing 'set it off, by boosie' making my eyes widen as she sings the whole song word for word.

"i aint never had shit but i can fuck a bad bitch" she sings and i smirk, after a while we pull into a McDonalds and she orders a ten piece nugget meal with a dr.pepper, i order the same thing and we pull up to the next window.

she trys to pay but i smack her hands away and hand the worker my black card, the worker hands me my card back and we get our food "your not eating in my car" i say and she glares at me "yes huh, give me my food" she says trying to reach for the bag but i tug it away.

"nuh uh" i say smirking and she rolls her eyes and secretly sneaks a fry, as we drive she lays her head on the seat and closes her eyes and thats when i know its game time, i secretly sneak my hand in the bag but it makes noise and she sits up with a glare.

"i dont mess with you like that" she says as she takes the fry out of my hand and puts it back in the bag, i chuckle and she switches the music to 'no juice by boosie' and sings the whole song while pointing in my face like she's singing it to me.

once we pull up to my house we both get out and begin going inside, she snatches the food away from me and sits down at the table and begins eating, i furrow my eyebrows at her as she eats the food like she's the flash.

"slow down before you choke" i say and she rolls her eyes but then she starts coughing and i smirk "told you" i say and she glare at me, why didnt she have all of this confidence when i bullied her.

was it because she was scared, maybe. but now i promised to never hurt her again so she feels more comftorable.

"remember when you used to abuse me" she says teasing me and i roll my eyes as i inhale my drink "remember when you were aggravating, oh wait..." i say and she throws a fry at me and laughs.

"where's your sister?" she asks looking around and i shrug "probaly upstairs sleeping" i say "no im not" my sister yells as she runs down the stairs and towards us, when she sees Valentina she pauses.

"i never ever expected this.." my sister says as she looks at Valentina who is dark red "me neither" i sigh trying to take one of Valentina's frys but she slaps my hands away.

"bitch" i whisper.

"whore" she says