Expected (18+)

13

My whole body freezes as I open the door to see my whole friend group, Michael and Zach all looked over my body with a smirk as i slapped my forehead out of embarrassment.

"Excuse me" I say shutting the door on them and running upstairs to my room, quickly I change into a pair of black shorts and run back downstairs.

When I open the door I see everyone still standing there, they all look at me before just walking in and sitting on the couch.

"I love you music choice it suits you" Courtney says "what's that supposed to mean?" I say earning a scoff from her, "it means your weird" rolling my eyes I flick her off and walk to my kitchen to get snacks.

When I come back Michael grabs the giant bag of pretzels from my hand and starts eating them like he hasn't ate in a million years.

"What are you guys doing here anyway?" I ask slapping Zach's leg so I can sit down "we were driving by" Micheal shrugs.

That's not a very good explanation but it will work for now, leaning on Michael's shoulder I grab my phone and see a text from my father.

'Hey sweetie, I'm going to be home in a bit with some groceries' rolling my eyes I throw my phone down on the coach and rest my head on Michael's leg and stretching my body.

"My dad's going to be home soon" I tell everyone but they all know my dad honestly doesn't care so they shrug it off and go back to what hey we're doing.

Looking around the room my eyes fall on him again, he's staring at me with a glare and when his eyes fall on Michael it hardens, when he looks back at me his face and eyes soften instantly and so do mine, his hair is in front of his face and he digs into the couch with his nails as if he's trying to force himself to stay seated and not do something he regrets, and honestly I'm doing the same.

'Why do you always hurt me' I mouth from afar and I watch as he pauses and furrows his eyebrows, rolling my eyes I turn in my back and look at the sky, why is everything always so different in my life, I can't have one good thing before someone ruins it.

Looking down at my arm that's out of sight because of the coach I stare at the freshly cut wounds, the wounds are still dark red and has little dots of blood dripping down but I ignore them pulling down my sleeve.

Standing up I grab my things and run upstairs to my bedroom, instantly as I enter my room I fall on my bed and break into tears, I need him but I know I can't have him and I think that's what hurts most.

Turning my head, I stare at the razor sitting on my dresser and my hand starts moving towards it with no remorse and the next thing I know it's in my hand and all I can do is stare at it trying to decide if I should break that promise.

The promise that started everything, the promise that also ruined everything, it's so addicting, I can't stop and I don't think I ever will.

Sliding the sharp blade across my arm I barely feel pain as I create multiple cuts on my arm and watch as the blood flows down my pale skin making it turn red.

But my focus is taken away from my arm and towards the door as I look up and see him standing there with tears in his eyes and nothing but hurt surrounding him.

Standing up i stare at him as he shuts and licks the door before speed walking over to me and grabbing my arm.

His fingers slide across the fresh cuts, he looks at me before walking over to my bathroom and grabbing the alcohol and tissue paper.

"E-ez-" he shushes me with a glare as he sits me down on the bed and stands over me as he cleans up the bloody wounds "you promised" he whispers.

"You promised to never do this ever again," he says finally meeting my eyes and my heart shatters completely as I see the tears running down his face.

"You promised to never hurt me" I say and he scoffs moving to the side and I stand up with a glare "you lied Ezra, you lied about all of this" I scream.

"I trusted you when I was at my lowest even after everything you've done to me I still found a way to trust you and put it all behind me" I scream.

"You expect me to not hurt and just push past it though, because that's what you did, right? You went and you got with Cortney after all of that" .

He scoffs, "I didn't do shit, I moved on Val so I wouldn't hurt you, I didn't move on for my well being I moved on because that's what I thought and know what's best for YOU!" He says putting his pointer finger in the middle of my chest.

"Well it not, it's not better for me because all I can think about is you Ezra, your in my head, your in my dreams, your in my heart, all I needed was you and you weren't there, I loved you Ezra." I say.

"Loved?" He says his voice cracking a bit "loved." I say pushing past him and running out of my room, when I come downstairs I see everyone staring at me and Ezra standing at the top of the stairs with a glare.

"Everyone out" I say trying to fight back tears that are urging to come out, quickly everyone stand up and says goodbye before walking out, Ezra is last to walk out and just to torture me more he turns and meets my eyes before walking out.

Loved.