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Ezra's pov

When the salty words spilt out her mouth my whole body froze, I felt like everything turned upside down, she loved me and now there's nothing.

Her smile was embedded in my brain, her laugh, her hair, her cute button nose, the way her three dimples popped out when she laughed or the way she tried to act so strong but once you show her attention she breaks down and she tells you everything.

Losing Valentina was something that broke me apart and can never be healed, I fucked up i fucked up really bad and I know there's no fixing it.

She doesn't love me anymore she looks at me with pure horror and rage in her eyes, Courtney was a distraction but a horrible one, when we had sex all I could think about was Valentina.

I never thought any of this would happed but I know it's my fault, everything I did leading up to this point was my fault.

I broke her heart and in return we broke each others, hearing her say the word 'loved' completely broke me into pieces, I wanted to drop to my knees and tell her everything.

How I felt, but I knew it wouldn't make it better because I fucked up big time and there was no fixing it because there is no fixing me.

She hurt herself again and now I can't stop her, all of this trauma and heart break isn't good for her and I know that but me being me I can't help but hurt her.

I'm not using it as an excuse but I know deep down that this is my fault and if I never would have stopped her on the first day of school she would be okay.

Or that's just what I thought, Valentina was struggling way before I came into her life but I know most of it was because of me and it hurt me.

I loved her.

Valentina's pov

I felt like absolute shit.

I told him I didn't love him anymore but I lied, I was pissed, I was mad and I wanted to say anything I could to hurt him.

But it backfired on both of us, Ezra is a huge over thinker and I knew that's what he was doing now, I missed him.

I missed his laugh, i missed his smile, I miss the way he looked at me, i miss when would grab my waist and just stare at me with love but I was so blind back then.

I miss him, I miss him so fucking much to the point it hurts to even see him but I know I hurt him way too much to even try to get him back.

Pain shot through my body as I broke the promise once more and sent a hard cut down my arm, blood poured out my arm but I ignored it knowing it would take much more for me to bleed out fully.

Every time I close my eyes and even looked around all I saw was the hurt on his face when I said the words 'loved' I hurt him and I feel so bad.

He didn't deserve that, all he ever did was try and look out for me but I pushed him away and now he's with someone else.

Standing up, I walk over to my bathroom and quickly wrap my arm before I actually do bleed out on my carpet.

"Valentina?" My father's voice rings from downstairs as the front door shuts, quickly I wrap my arm and throw on a hoodie.

"Hey papa," I say as I peak from behind the stairs "there you are" a large smile forms on his face as he grabs me and pulls me into an hug.

I needed that.

The hug was enough to make me start thinking about everything, tears stream down my cheeks which my father obviously feels because he pulls away.

"What's wrong?" He asks smiling down at me "nothing, I'm just really stressed" I lied smiling back up at him, he furrows his eyebrows but then nods patting my back.

"Oh, are you busy tomorrow by any chance?" He asked, tomorrow is Saturday which means  wouldn't be busy "no, why?" I ask and he smiles.

"Look, I know you hate these things but I really need you to go with me to the ball tomorrow" he says, my smile drops.

I hated these things, big poofy dresses, woman trying to convince me to marry there sons or trying to  get my father to agree to it , which he never does.

I think for a little bit before looking at him "fine, but I get to choose my dress this year." I say, he sighs but nods making me smile as I walk away.

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Short chapter because I have so much writers block😃.