fight or flight, I'd rather lie

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pjm
aren't you coming?

Taehyung
no

pjm
you know it's MY welcome party, right?

Taehyung
that's exactly why I'm not coming.

pjm
you're no fun.

Taehyung
I'm not trying to be.

pjm
oh come on
not a single one of the morons here knows that we are exes.
we are just coworkers here
(who used to have sex
☺️

Taehyung
I would make every single one of them knew
but you didn't let me, remember? :)

pjm
it was for your own good, stupid.

Taehyung
what does it have to do with my own good to stop me from revealing that we're together?

pjm
didn't you see people's reactions?
what have they done just because we seem close?
I wanted to hide it to keep you safe.
we talked about it at the time.

Taehyung
why hadn't you left this to me to worry about?
you think I'm not prepared for all of it?

pjm
do we sit and talk about the past now?

Taehyung
yeah, why not?
aren't you the one who hid our relationship then came to me after we broke up and told me that my new girlfriend should know that I wanted to find you in her?
it appears that the past is not in the past, so why not talk about it?

pjm
because now is not the time for that.

Taehyung
you know what
you're always trying to make decisions for us
for me.
that's exactly why we're in this fucking situation.

pjm
excuse me?

Taehyung
you're always trying to decide what's better for me.
you always act like I'm the one who needs to be protected between the two of us
like I'm the one who always needs to be saved
which is on the contrary.

pjm
wow
you have so much to say about how awful I am.

Taehyung
jimin
it has nothing to do with how you are.
no matter how tough you pretend to be and stand up to those big people with flames in your eyes, I already know how hard it is for you.
and you have no idea how damn painful that feels.
seen✔️✔️

Taehyung
why don't you let me protect you for once?

pjm
I don't need protection.

Taehyung
why do you think I do?

pjm
what I'm doing is not to protect you, taehyung
it's to make those who caused us to be in this situation regret it.

Taehyung
how do you know you won't get hurt doing this?

pjm
because somehow I'm on your side
you're already protecting me, even if you don't realize it.
most of all, from myself.

Taehyung
I don't feel that way.

pjm
it wouldn't feel that way if you don't come here
because the people around me are a great danger to me right now😔

Taehyung
jimin
I'm talking about something serious.

pjm
darling, I totally understand you
really
you have a point, for sure
but I'm literally right here at a party??

Taehyung
okay.
have a good time then.

pjm
are you really not coming?

Taehyung
no, I'm not.
you don't need protection anyway.
seen✔️✔️