Mere Pyaare readers,
Vote Karo😡
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Akansha's pov
After embarrassing myself several times in front of my boss, I decided that I would avoid talking to him or even better, I'll completely avoid seeing him, because iss choti si zindagi mein mein apne AAP ki itni hi beizzati endure kr skti hun.
I wanted to never see that perfect little face of his because the way I forget how to speak as soon as he comes in view is not healthy at all.
Finally the clock hit 7 and I packed up my things, finally the embarrassment filled day had come to an end, I started walking towards my car totally lost in my thoughts.
Everyone has their good and bad days, and even though what happened today was nothing in comparison to what could've happened i.e I could've lost my job, I still felt a little down.
It was like this for me, sometimes I felt not a care in the world, and sometimes even though nothing big had happened I felt totally disoriented, as if I had lost all my battles and nothing was left for me.
I seated myself in the car and noticed the little dream catcher that I always keep in my car, because it was given by my mother, she once told me that no matter how tough your time may be it too shall pass, these are the words that I never wish to forget.
The thought of it brought a little smile on my face and I started driving towards home.
Home, it's such a small word but carries such a deeper meaning, Growing up I had always felt left out, it's not like my parents or brother didn't love me, but they were always absent, I knew that they were busy. But the little girl in me was quite hurt when nobody showed up at her competitions or when I simply needed a hug and I found myself crying while hugging my soft toys to sleep because everyone was simply busy.
I was really fat growing up so I never got any attention from boys, and it made me feel like I wasn't worthy of love, I stopped eating completely after a major event in life that I do not want to remember, but I learned it the hard way that the right one will love you no matter how you look, they will accept all your flaws and make you feel like you are worthy.
I did not hold any grudges towards them because at the end of the day they were my family, but sometimes I still wish that while growing up I had been recognised by my family.
With all these thoughts running in my head I reached home.
As I entered I saw my whole family sitting in the dining area, the view of them sitting together and laughing, warmed my heart.
"Hello beautiful people" I said in a cheeky tone.
"Hi Meri lado" dad said as I hugged him from behind, I let myself sink in his embrace
Because it was comforting.
After a minute I pulled back, and started walking towards the empty chair.
"Meri hug kha hai" said my mumma from the other side of the table.
Without saying anything I went over to her side to hug her.
Moments like these made me believe in life again, moments like this filled my heart with hope.
But Aaj Tak jitni baar bhi mene hopes high kri hai, I've been hurt by different people in the same ways.
So this time I didn't let myself get too happy.
As I pulled back myself from my mother, I knew what my brother was gonna say so before he could I hugged him too.
After completing the whole hugging sesh I finally sat down to eat, but I didn't feel like eating anything so I ate a bite or two, said goodnight to my family, I went into my room .
I scrolled insta for a bit and then decided to start a new book.
I loved reading a lot, because when I was little and I found myself alone, books were always there for me to escape to.
After reading almost half the book I looked at the watch.
FUCK, it was 2 am
Bas yehi Kami thi mujh mein agr koi kaam krne lag jau toh time ka dhyan hi nhi rheta.
Even though I wanted to finish the book I decided ki ab mujhe so Jana chaiye nhi toh kal late ho jaungi so phir uss khadoos se taunt sune padenge.
