The Murder House

Ninteen - You Are Home

"Oh, hey," Romani stopped short.

"Hey," River half smiled. "I'll go—"

"No, stay, it's your house too," he looked down. "Mind if I join you?" He took her silence as acceptance and joined her on the steps beside her. It had been two days since they spoke, after he screamed at her when he fell in the shower. All she was doing was trying to help him but he was naked and exposed, and all he could think about was sex and he didn't want her to think he was going back on his promise. He felt vulnerable and didn't let her in, instead he pulled a Kristine and threatened her. Each time he walked into a room she walked out, it didn't take long for the band to notice but it was Ellis who shoved Romani against a wall pinning him in until he said his peace. Romani was left shaking from the verbal assault he was given, now he knew he had to apologise but how he didn't know. "I love you, you kna,"

"Do you?" She asked. "Am a human enough?"

"You know I didn't mean it like that—"

"No Romani I didn't, would you take it as anything else when you're being called a unemotional robot?" He recoiled at her words even though he remembered screaming them at her while spit flew from his mouth. "Just give is time, soon it'll be packed away all nice. A don't do emotions ye kna that, diven't throw it back in my face alright? I don't throw around the shit you've said to me behind closed doors. If your father knew what you said he'd go off the walls and that's both of them,"
"You think I enjoyed finding you curled up with him?"

"Romani he was my hero growing up, do you really think I want to sleep with him? He's not even attractive! For gods sake get over this, a needed some comfort, it's like saying a cannet hug Ellis because he's a man,"

"Well I'd prefer you not to—"

"You sound like me fucking fatha, get over yourself. For once in your life look beyond what you think, see it from my point of view. You think a would blow a casket if a saw you and me motha cuddled up watching married at first sight? No. It was love island but a really do not care because you don't see her as anything more than me mam, your Gorgeous. Keep going the way you're going and a will walk away and a will never reveal to you what I've found hidden in the house you refuse to look at," she looked at him for the first time. "If you diven't want me here just tell me, a will figure it out somehow,"

"I'd not do that to you River,"

"It's better than whatever we have Romani,"

"Since we moved in I've found out I'm not actually who I thought, I'm my mothers dead best friends missing son. I've lost Elton, I've met my uncle who you told me is the drug dealer who made the drugs to paralyse me. I've been having terrible withdrawals from whatever drugs I've been on and you expect me to be all sunshine and rainbows?"

"No I expect you to be civil," her eyes cut back to the grass. "I expected you to see it from my point of view, I'm truing you help and I'm getting nothing but hate in return. If someone spoke to you the way you've spoke to me would you stay?"

"Well no—"

"Exactly, maybe we just aren't meant to be Roma. Sometimes love isn't enough," her eyes cut to his and it broke his heart. "Am tired, this case has opened up more loose ends than you can comprehend. I just want to come home and feel safe, a diven't want to be scared to go downstairs in my own house,"

"Can you bear with me?"

"Can you promise it'll get easier?"

"Pops always says when a patient first comes to him they're sometimes stubborn and refuse treatment. It comes after they've finally accepted the truth of the situation, can you bare with me, just give me a few more days?" He knew he was asking for something he didn't deserve, he couldn't remember half of what he said to her but he could remember feeling shit at the way she kept her silence. "Please give me a second chance,"