Aurora - You are my light (Ateez x reader)

FOURTEEN

I looked around my cabin, puzzled, needing a moment to realize it had all been a dream. The morning had progressed far already, the sun standing high in the sky, casting its light into my room. I lay across the bed in my clothes, just as I had fallen asleep. Apparently, in my head, I hadn't managed to crawl under the covers. At least I had been able to take off my boots.

The dream had felt so vivid and real that I could have sworn it had actually happened. On the other hand, I was relieved it was only a dream, because I would never have forgiven myself if I had seriously gotten involved with San. But a little dreaming and fantasizing never hurt anyone. He was still as hot as ever, after all. As long as no one knew, I thought.

The images from my dream resurfaced, playing out like a movie in my mind. The closeness with Yeosang, his voice, his looks, his hardness. And San's touches, his body, his fingers, his lips. Even though it was all just a dream, it had spared me from my usual nightmares, instead giving me two very steamy and arousing dreams that left me confused about my sexual tendencies.

The dream had left some very real marks on me. I could feel the heat and unfulfilled desire pooling in my lower abdomen. What had San said in my dream? Your first orgasm belongs to you, his words echoed in my mind. How did he know I'd never had an orgasm before? In a dream, anything was possible, I supposed. I had never done anything like this before, but my body was practically screaming for release.

I slipped out of my skirt and crawled under the covers. Cautiously, I touched myself, feeling the lingering wetness from my dream. I wasn't exactly sure how to start, so I remembered how San had touched me in my dream. Gently and hesitantly, testing my body's reactions, I circled my clit with my fingers. My hips jerked in response to the touch, and I felt it swell under my attention.

It felt so good, almost as if my body had been waiting all these years for such tender and satisfying touch from myself. I moaned softly as I circled my clit a little faster. The images of Yeosang and San from my dreams swirled in my mind, arousing me further. Slowly, I slid a finger inside myself, savoring the intimate touch. It gave me a sense of power and control I had never experienced before. I could decide what I needed and how much.

I added a second finger, thrusting them in and out while my other hand continued to stimulate my clit. The sensations nearly drove me crazy. I rocked my hips against my own touch to intensify the feeling, moving my fingers faster. A larger wave of pleasure washed over me, and I threw my head back, moaning. Hopefully, no one would come in now.

My body was on fire, and as I felt myself nearing my first orgasm, I increased the pressure, letting myself go. The waves of pleasure crashed over me, making me scream out. It was breathtaking and fulfilling. My clit pulsed against my fingers as I rode out my orgasm, savoring every moment.

The orgasm left me senseless and dazed. My ears rang as the final waves of pleasure coursed through my body, and I collapsed weakly into the sheets. My body felt exhausted and yet stronger than ever. Sweat dripped from my forehead, my hair sticking to my damp skin. Still breathless and with a racing heart, I felt an overwhelming sense of relaxation seize my body and muscles.

I lay there for several minutes, letting the afterglow of my first orgasm wash over me, too overwhelmed to process it all. When I finally felt able to get up, I staggered on shaky legs. My body felt like jelly. I desperately needed a refreshing bath and a change of clothes.

I left my room, heading off in search of Seonghwa to take up his offer of fresh clothes. But as I walked down the corridor, I realized I didn't even know where his cabin was, or which part of the ship it was in. How on earth was I supposed to find someone on such a large ship?

I considered my options. There were two staircases leading below deck. One at the front, towards the bow, which I had never descended. The other was at the rear, near the stern, which I used to get to my room.