Waiting outside the lines

Chapter 14

I walk to my brothers room and the guilt hits me right away. Why did I do that? I don't even know if I like him or not. How could I be such an idiot?
As I hate and criticize myself some more, my little brother calls me again and I go into his room.
"Ok little guy. What do you need help with?" I say as I walk in. The lights are off. That's weird. I just heard my brother in here. As I look for the lights I feel my brother touch my leg. "Oh there you are little guy. Why are the lights off?" He doesn't answer. Instead, I feel him start to rub my leg and then go up to my 'backside'. Then I realize these hands are too big to be my brothers. I push the hands off of me and turn the light on. I scream at what I see. Jake stands in front of me. Smiling his evil smile.
My little brother is next to him then he runs to me. "Sissy what's wrong? Why did you scream?" He hugs me and I hug him back. I look down at him. "No I'm fine. Um I just didn't know he was here so he scared me." I let go of him and kneel down so we can be face to face. "Um so why is Jake here?" I try to say calmly but my voice cracks and its obvious something's wrong.
"It's fine sis. It's just Jakey." I look up at Jake and he is still smiling at me with an evil smile. "Um ok but why is he here?" I say more sternly. "Its because yesterday he told me he had a surprise for you. A present! And he told me he wanted to give it to you today. I thought you really needed a present so we made a plan that I would let him in and I would call you over. Then he would give you his present. I'm sorry. I just wanted you to have a present."
"Um its fine. I'm not mad at you just don't ever let anyone in again okay? Unless I say so. "
"Okay. I hope you like the present though." I get up and try to act normal. "So um.. What's the present?" I ask a little scared to find out.
Jake walks towards my brother and I walk back. He puts his cut
up hands on my brother's shoulders and squeezes them as if giving him a message. "Oh it's just. . ." Before I let him finish I grab my brother from his grasp by yanking his arm and pulling him towards me. When he's in my arms I say to him,"Hey can you go get me my. . . Um can you go get me my glasses from my room?"
"Why do you need glasses Sis?"
"Um so I can. . see the present better."
"But I want to see the present!" He says excitedly.
"How about this? If you go get me my glasses, I'll let you see it later."
"Okay!"
"Great! And don't come back until you find them." Then I think about how Wayne's in my room. "Wait! Little bro!"
"Yea?" I try to think of a way to warn Wayne without having to go over to my room. "Um why don't you. . practice singing your songs from the play you're gonna do at school?"
He jumps up and down,"That's a great idea!" And he goes off to my room singing as loud as he can. Hopefully Wayne will get the hint that he needs to hide.
I keep my back to Jake. Because now we're alone. And thats how all of this started. With me and Jake being alone.
I turn around and Jake is right in front of me. I jump back and hit the wall. 'Oh gosh not this again!' I think.
I try to hide my fear but don't do such a great job. He laughs at me mockingly and puts his hands on my waist but I push them off of me. He smiles and says, "Don't worry I'm just kidding. I just wanted to talk." He goes back and sits on my little brother's bed which I don't like but honestly I'd rather him be there then really close to me.
He taps the bed twice as if telling me to sit next to him. "No I'm good here." I say moving away from the wall but not getting that close to Jake.
"Why are you all the way over there? Sit over here. I don't bight."
I stop moving and try hard not to look at him. That's exactly what he said that morning when we talked. The morning where I really started to like him. But I doubt this is going to end in him taking me and my brother to school and absolutely not in he and me kissing like last time.
Then I finally say,"Really? I'm not sure that's totally true."
He ignores my comment and says sarcastically,"So I bet you're dying to know what the present is." I don't respond. I don't even look at him. Then I think how can he be talking to me so calmly right now? As if nothing happened last night? I don't understand. Then I realize its probably just part of his plan. Whatever his plan is.
We are in silence until Jake says"Fine you can ignore me if you want but I won't give you the present until you talk to me." I roll my eyes and still don't respond or look at him. "Ok I'll just talk then.. So that was pretty smart. Telling your brother to go get your glasses. I didn't know you wore contacts though."
I still don't look at him,"I don't."
"There's that voice I've been waiting for! Anyway so what are you gonna do when he finds them?" He gets up and starts walking towards me,"We wouldn't want him barging in and interrupting something, now would we?" I move back but make sure I'm not somewhere where he can pin me to the wall again. I go in the doorway of the room. He's still walking towards me as I look at the wall and say,"I don't have glasses." He stops (thank goodness) and starts laughing really loud. "Clever. Oh and telling him to sing to warn your boyfriend to hide. . You're smarter then I thought little girl."
"He's not my boyfriend." I say finally looking at him, which was not a good idea. It was hard not to stare at his eyes. No matter how horrible the things he said were, his eyes made you think he was sweet and perfect and pretty much everything he's not. No wonder so many people are fooled by him. His eyes give you a comforting feeling when you look into them. Like he cares for you and will never leave you.
The next thing Jake says makes me forget about his eyes completely.
"You sure he's not your boyfriend? Or do you just make out with every guy you need distracted?"
What? How does he know about that? I try to act dumb. "What are you talking about?"
"Don't act stupid. I saw the whole thing." I look at him confused. How could he have seen the whole thing? We were in my room and I know the door was closed.. Right?.. Yea it had to be. I didn't hear it open.. Well.. I don't know I could be wrong. I laugh as if I think what he just said is crazy. "Okay Jake if you 'saw the whole thing'," I say making quotations in the air with my fingers,"what did you see?"
"You really want me to tell you?"
I nod.
"Fine. I'll tell you everything."
When he said everything he meant everything. He told me about how I screamed in my dream to me kissing Wayne on the cheek before I came to my brothers room. When he's finally done I just glare at him. "How do you.." But I don't finish my question, afraid to hear the answer. We stand there in silence. Him with a smirk on his face and me wondering how he could know all that stuff. I can't think of anything so I say,"Just.. What's the 'present'?" I ask annoyed. He gives me an evil smirk which makes me regret asking.
"Actually, it kinda ties into your other question about how I knew all that stuff." I look at him confused.
"You wanna know how I know everything?"
I hesitate. "I don't know." I say not looking at him.
"I'll give you a hint.. It has to do with your boyfriend."
I let what he says sink in for a second and realize what he means. "I don't believe you! Wayne would never tell you anything. He hates you!! That's not even possible anyway. He was with me the whole time.. Oh yea and he's NOT MY BOYFRIEND!!"
"Ok so you do just make out with any guy you need distracted. Well that's great to know." He starts walking towards me again,"You know I think I need a little bit of distracting right now. You know, from the whole present thing." I try to move back but the door's in my way. I can't open it because what if my brother is out there. He's right in front of my now. His hands on my waist (a little too low) and his face right in front of mine. I look to the right so my cheek is to him. "Stop." I say trying to push him away from me but he won't budge.
Then I hear someone outside the door. "Sissy! Sissy I can't find them!"
I grab the door handle just in case my little brother tries to come in. "Get off!" I say quietly but sternly.
"No."
I try to push him off again but he's too strong and I can't with my other hand still on the door. I try to knee him but he stops my leg with his hand and doesn't let go. I feel my brother pull on the handle. I hold onto it so he can't come in though. He keeps trying to open it but I don't let him.
"Sissy! Sissy are you okay?? The door won't open."
"I'm not moving." He says with an evil smirk. I glare at him and yell back to my brother. "I know. Jake is fixing the door so it won't squeak when it opens. It has to be closed for now. Just keep looking. Why don't you look in my closet."
"Okay" he yells back but then I realize Wayne might be hiding in the closet. So I yell,"Wait no! Um.. Why don't you try downstairs in the closet. They could be in there."
"Okay." I hear him go down the stairs and feel a little better. I sigh out of relief and let go of the handle. I look back at Jake.
"Now we don't have to worry about your little brother coming in. Great job. You're one step ahead of me, Janet. Now where were we?" He gets closer to me again and tries to kiss me but I move my head so he kisses me cheek instead. "Come on stop!" I practically yell. I try to push him away again but it still doesn't work.
Then I think about how I stopped him last time and kiss him. He seems surprised that I gave up all of a sudden but seems not to mind. He kisses me back and when he loosens his grip a bit I knee him where no guy should be kneed. He moves back and bends in pain. Then I kick him and he falls to the ground. He looks up at me holding his side where I kicked him. "So you do just kiss people when you need them distracted."
"Get out!" I yell grabbing the collar of his shirt and picking him up. When he's finally on his feet I open the door, still holding his collar, and drag him down the stairs. "Aw come on. We were having so much fun." He says laughing mockingly.
"Maybe you were, but not me. Now get out!" I open the front door and throw him out then slam the door shut. I lock all the locks and turn around and see my little brother looking at me.