𝑬𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑰𝒕 𝑻𝒂𝒌𝒆𝒔 𝑻𝒐 𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒀𝒐𝒖

𝑷𝒓𝒐𝒍𝒐𝒈𝒖𝒆

My heart told me 'this is wrong' and I answered 'I know'. He rubbed small circles on my back. I completely leaned against him. "I'm sorry..I'm such a burden for you instead of just being a client"

"No you are not.. Even if you are I'd carry you till my last breath happily" he rests his chin on my shoulder.

My eyes shot up realising what he said. My eyes searched his, he wasn't lying.. the softness and vulnerability of his face were too true to be denied.

How can I not love him?

I don't know if it's right time to confess but I cannot live with this ache in my heart. Even though every cell in my body knows that he loves someone else I cannot resist myself from loving him. The way he calms me down, the way his words feel like heaven, the way I crave for his touch it just makes it hard to live.

I cannot betray his feelings by hiding the truth, the contract doesn't state my future happenings at all, he doesn't have any kind of idea of who I am.

"You shouldn't be saying something you don't mean.." I muttered. I pulled back from the hug and sat up straight facing him. I wiped my tears with the back of my hand. He entwined our hand in front of us.

I know I said 'I can live without having him but I cannot live with his rejection' but NO I was wrong. I cannot live without him in any part of the world.

If not him then no one else in the world.

He didn't respond, maybe regretting what he said. "I know you love someone else so just don't say the words you don't mean, even though those words make me feel loved" tears blurred my vision again. I clutched his hand tighter than before and my head hung down tears rolling down from cheeks to our entwined hands.

"I never said a word that I didn't meant. Coral I don't know what got you thinking I love someone else who is.." he paused, maybe deciding what to say next or maybe he will regret saying that.  "-not you"

My heart left several beats at his words. My nails dug harder into his hands. "I would not be able to take this..if it's a lie. 'Cause I know how much I.." my voice broke into sobs. I was going to confess.

"How much I what? What Coral?" He asked. He held up my chin between his thumb and index finger forcing me to look at him. There was a crease on his forehead. Our gaze met and it felt like a thousand unspoken words can be heard now. It felt like a warm wave of ocean hugging the sea shore, like rain mingles with greenery.

I blinked a few times before answering. "How much I love you" I said finally. Tears welled up in his eyes too. "I don't know what you feel about me but I cannot live with this aching heart for you Rishi.." I stuttered at last. I pressed my palms against my face while I cried harder.

He closed the distance between us as he put his arms over my shoulder. My face pressed against his chest. I shook under his arms. "Coral.." he whispered. I don't know when I settled on his lap but whatever it was I was more than comfortable.

"There are so many forbidden things in this world but loving you isn't one of them for me" he kissed the side of my forehead. The hug felt like a warm blanket with soft fur. "Not in this life, not in any of the other lives."